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graceseeker · 09-02-2005, 05:04 PM

Tomorrow is my- 39th b-day (again lol)- and if anyone has any prayer in them for a stranger seeking the Lord in her life mor fully- could you spare some for me?

About 7 days ago, I had a talk with my PC doc about my meds... I asked him if I should drop any, and how much.... Despite the fact that I have some serious conditions, including lupus, he said something like, " I would definitely drop the pain meds- because they are the ones that can land you in rehab!" I didn't expect that- but was hoping he would say something about it... I asked him if he though I should go to rehab now, or if he though he could oversee a titration program at home (my husband already holds my meds- and doses me). He said that I should try it with him monitoring me- at home first... (esp. because of the serious health issues). My health, and the amount of meds I am on, make any "cold turkey" thing very dangerous...

So, anyway, it is now about day 7 of taking 80mg less oxy !!!! In a few days, I am supposed to drop again... I believe in spiritual warfare, so I braced myself for satan's reaction... Sure enough ALL the poop hit the fan just about right away. Every trigger, avery button I knew I had- and a few I didn't even know about have been pushed ! Money problems, marriage, car- and right now I'm suffering from a vile sore-throat I got from my boy (haven't had one in forever- and they flare-up the pain of my lupus. The only compromise I made was taking a small dose of a short-acting type that is in my scrip at bed-time, to sleep w the sore throat and lupus pain. I have had to take those a couple times- but it's nothing like the 80mg...

And speaking of spiritual warfare, the other day, hubby somehow (we can't even figure it out) left an entire bottle of oxys on the kitchen table- and I discovered them while I was home alone and in W/D! Thank you, Jesus, for getting me through that one!!! Once he got home from work, I gave them to him (I think I called him at work too)

Anyway, kinof a selfish post- but could any of you kind Christian people pray that this entire family will be delivered? Addiction, lupus, cancer, my dad cutting everyone out of his life... satan wants to ruin everything! But I intend to keep on keeping on... God Willing

God Bless, All
GS

PS- And Lord, save the poor desperate people caught in that monster hurricane! Why oh why didn't everyone pray before that thing landed- when it was still in the Gulf of Mexico- headed for the country?? I never heard a call for prayer on the news or anywhere-until the next day when it was too late! (I did pray-but could have prayed more) But what is the matter with us? Evey church should have been open the night before?!

CAPTAINZING2000 · 09-02-2005, 08:34 PM

Happy Birthday to you

Hope you have many happy 24 hours to come

hugs

Chris

best · 09-03-2005, 01:29 AM

Graceseeker :loons

and the prayers are not part of a gift for the day. They are there already.
With your wisdom and the Lord at your side, You will make it through any storm. When we are weak, He is strong.

Cap3 · 09-03-2005, 05:32 AM

Hapy Birthday,
My prayers are with you and your family.
God Bless

graceseeker · 09-03-2005, 09:25 AM

THank YOU!!!!!!

It's nice to hear from you guys- and I like the smilies and balloons, too...

You know what? This is the first b-day in about ten years where I didn't start it with extra meds, just to "insure" that I was "well" enough to enjoy it! I am a bity tempted, I guess- but I know that my pain isn't all that bad today, and that I really do not need anything extra right now- that I need to stick with the titration downward!!!!!!

It helps so much to post here!

Strength and grace to my fellow travelers here-
God Bless,

GS:bparty3

Free to love · 09-04-2005, 04:04 AM

Happy B-day !!!!! Hang in there. You can make it. I don't know the pain of Lupis (only through a friend), but I live in pain most days. Praying helps alot. It sounds like you have a great support system. Like you, I've been blessed with a supportive hubby. Having Jesus to turn to is my best comfort. I do know first hand about the attacks of the enemy. Keep your faith in the Lord & stay grounded in Him. I know it gets hard when there's so much going on. My belief is, that God trusts me to handle these things. I take it as a compliment (at least I try to). Prayers your way !

graceseeker · 09-06-2005, 03:21 PM

Hi FreeThank you so much for your kind reply. It means a lot to hear someone say that you CAN make it !!

As to my support system- it consists of only the Lord and my family (just husband and 10-year-old son) + the priceless prayers from the church. My poor hubby doesn't really know what to say. Like when I first started getting worried about addiction .... So many bad things had happened in my life, and were piling up just then, that he actually said (about my getting addicted), "well, it would be understandable- I guess...but very unfirtunate..."( I guess he felt like I needed sympathy - but I have always felt as though I needed some motivation to stop before things got out of hand- not any 'justification' to keep going in the wrong direction... but , thank the Lord, My husband is TERRIFIC- and PATIENTin so many ways,...

Oh- BTW- THANKS BE TO THE LORD- as this is day10, and even though the nasty enemy has been using my proplonged sore throat to mess up my efforts- I am still taking the LESS- as the doc ordered !

Thank You, Free, and anyone else who has prayed

We all need to pray for the desperate victims of the Hurricane... some of them are even still trapped in their houses- and for our government ...

God Bless!
GS

wiredawg · 02-17-2006, 12:03 AM

So Graceseeker, you still there?

09-02-2005, 05:04 PM	#1 (permalink)
graceseeker Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: albuquerque New Mexico Posts: 13	Happy Birthday to me? Tomorrow is my- 39th b-day (again lol)- and if anyone has any prayer in them for a stranger seeking the Lord in her life mor fully- could you spare some for me? About 7 days ago, I had a talk with my PC doc about my meds... I asked him if I should drop any, and how much.... Despite the fact that I have some serious conditions, including lupus, he said something like, " I would definitely drop the pain meds- because they are the ones that can land you in rehab!" I didn't expect that- but was hoping he would say something about it... I asked him if he though I should go to rehab now, or if he though he could oversee a titration program at home (my husband already holds my meds- and doses me). He said that I should try it with him monitoring me- at home first... (esp. because of the serious health issues). My health, and the amount of meds I am on, make any "cold turkey" thing very dangerous... So, anyway, it is now about day 7 of taking 80mg less oxy !!!! In a few days, I am supposed to drop again... I believe in spiritual warfare, so I braced myself for satan's reaction... Sure enough ALL the poop hit the fan just about right away. Every trigger, avery button I knew I had- and a few I didn't even know about have been pushed ! Money problems, marriage, car- and right now I'm suffering from a vile sore-throat I got from my boy (haven't had one in forever- and they flare-up the pain of my lupus. The only compromise I made was taking a small dose of a short-acting type that is in my scrip at bed-time, to sleep w the sore throat and lupus pain. I have had to take those a couple times- but it's nothing like the 80mg... And speaking of spiritual warfare, the other day, hubby somehow (we can't even figure it out) left an entire bottle of oxys on the kitchen table- and I discovered them while I was home alone and in W/D! Thank you, Jesus, for getting me through that one!!! Once he got home from work, I gave them to him (I think I called him at work too) Anyway, kinof a selfish post- but could any of you kind Christian people pray that this entire family will be delivered? Addiction, lupus, cancer, my dad cutting everyone out of his life... satan wants to ruin everything! But I intend to keep on keeping on... God Willing God Bless, All GS PS- And Lord, save the poor desperate people caught in that monster hurricane! Why oh why didn't everyone pray before that thing landed- when it was still in the Gulf of Mexico- headed for the country?? I never heard a call for prayer on the news or anywhere-until the next day when it was too late! (I did pray-but could have prayed more) But what is the matter with us? Evey church should have been open the night before?!

09-02-2005, 08:34 PM	#2 (permalink)
CAPTAINZING2000 Psalm 118:24 Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: ILLINOIS Posts: 9,452 Blog Entries: 1	Happy Birthday to you Hope you have many happy 24 hours to come hugs Chris __________________ LIFE IS GOD'S GIFT TO YOU WHAT YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE IS YOUR GIFT TO GOD J - Jesus first O - Others next Y - Yourself last John 14:6

09-03-2005, 01:29 AM	#3 (permalink)
best Don't get undies in a bunch Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: South Shore MA Posts: 7,166	Graceseeker :loons and the prayers are not part of a gift for the day. They are there already. With your wisdom and the Lord at your side, You will make it through any storm. When we are weak, He is strong. __________________ * I asked God to spare me pain. God said "No", Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me. Recovery Related Acronym B. E. S. T. = Been Enjoying Sobriety Today?

09-04-2005, 04:04 AM	#6 (permalink)
Free to love loved & blessed Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: southren, NJ Posts: 109	Happy B-day !!!!! Hang in there. You can make it. I don't know the pain of Lupis (only through a friend), but I live in pain most days. Praying helps alot. It sounds like you have a great support system. Like you, I've been blessed with a supportive hubby. Having Jesus to turn to is my best comfort. I do know first hand about the attacks of the enemy. Keep your faith in the Lord & stay grounded in Him. I know it gets hard when there's so much going on. My belief is, that God trusts me to handle these things. I take it as a compliment (at least I try to). Prayers your way ! __________________ God Bless, FTL

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09-03-2005, 05:32 AM	#4 (permalink)
Cap3 Member Join Date: Jul 2002 Location: Canada Posts: 727	Hapy Birthday, My prayers are with you and your family. God Bless

09-03-2005, 09:25 AM	#5 (permalink)
graceseeker Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: albuquerque New Mexico Posts: 13	THank YOU!!!!!! It's nice to hear from you guys- and I like the smilies and balloons, too... You know what? This is the first b-day in about ten years where I didn't start it with extra meds, just to "insure" that I was "well" enough to enjoy it! I am a bity tempted, I guess- but I know that my pain isn't all that bad today, and that I really do not need anything extra right now- that I need to stick with the titration downward!!!!!! It helps so much to post here! Strength and grace to my fellow travelers here- God Bless, GS:bparty3

09-06-2005, 03:21 PM	#7 (permalink)
graceseeker Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: albuquerque New Mexico Posts: 13	Hi FreeThank you so much for your kind reply. It means a lot to hear someone say that you CAN make it !! As to my support system- it consists of only the Lord and my family (just husband and 10-year-old son) + the priceless prayers from the church. My poor hubby doesn't really know what to say. Like when I first started getting worried about addiction .... So many bad things had happened in my life, and were piling up just then, that he actually said (about my getting addicted), "well, it would be understandable- I guess...but very unfirtunate..."( I guess he felt like I needed sympathy - but I have always felt as though I needed some motivation to stop before things got out of hand- not any 'justification' to keep going in the wrong direction... but , thank the Lord, My husband is TERRIFIC- and PATIENTin so many ways,... Oh- BTW- THANKS BE TO THE LORD- as this is day10, and even though the nasty enemy has been using my proplonged sore throat to mess up my efforts- I am still taking the LESS- as the doc ordered ! *Thank You, Free, and anyone else who has prayed* *We all need to pray for the desperate victims of the Hurricane... some of them are even still trapped in their houses- and for our government ...* *God Bless!* GS

02-17-2006, 12:03 AM	#8 (permalink)
wiredawg Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Idaho Falls, Idaho Posts: 1	So Graceseeker, you still there?

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