God Please help me.

[msc1963007]

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I am lost I am trying so hard to do the right thing.I have been blessed with a good job at Wal-mart. I am trying to be right I have not payed the bill for three years my mother in law has. I have been trying to make this right for a while now. My wife of 23 years is still active with meth. I do have 141 clean days Praice God. He has got me through this. And to be honist it has not been to hard. Going to NA and to my Group, and most of all working the steps. Praying and medation has also helped My wife does not still see the light, and I dont know why. I guss after me useing for 25 years There is a lot of anger. I need help with my willness to let things happen when its time. She test my anger all the time. I am weak and I dont want to lose what I have.As I write the answers are coming to me. Just have Faith and ask God to give me more power to do the right things. I have aGreat 20 year old Daughter she has helped so much. When I am down She finds the right things to say thank you Jesus.Now hear is the real problem.Idont know how to say this, But now I think I know more. I love my wife,She has had a very bad week. Her Dad has been very sick.Canser and more. Sunday His kidneys started to shut down. Monday GOD called him home.He is gone and I nenver got to tell him I am sorry.I will miss him even though we have not been close. I lost my mom In 2003 to canser and nenver got to show her a drug free son. Now it happen again I wanted to show him I could be a good son in law. Now its to late. The up side is I have my dad and my mother in law to show, its time for me to step it up, and I am frightend. Please Pray for all of us. Iwill do the same for you all. May GOD Bless all recovering Drug addicts.

[liveweyerd]

I am so sorry for this loss in your family, please know that I send you prayers and hugs, and the faith that you will find comfort and peace.
Blessings,
live

[best]

With those who have passed on. Those who we feel we need to ask forgiveness of or feel there was something we needed to show them or tell them.... Tell it to Jesus and allow Him to carry your message.

Your post tells me you have the right tools and know where to get more strength as needed.
My prayer will be that you feel His peace through your days as we wait for the Lord to answer prayers of your wife finding recovery.
And His comfort in your time of loss as well.

My son is an alcoholic and I looked at him last year and told him if he finds sobriety after I am dead I will know it and I don't ever want him to feel bad if I didn't see it while I was alive. I've read so many posts about children's regrets that their parents never got to see them clean and sober.

I think most parents just want their kids to be happy, healthy, warm, secure and have their own relationship with God. If my son finds all that after my death I will jump for joy. It's not about good or bad. It's about love.

Hugs and prayers coming your way.

MG

[larrynboys]

Hi Mike
I see right now you have a whole lot of weight on your shoulders weighing you down and making it difficult to tredge forward, my heart and prayers go out to you. As Best said you have the right tools, but i believe it will be difficult to use these tools with so much pressure. This is what worked for me when my cross was so heavy i could hardly move, First of all i needed to believe what jesus did was so that i could be forgiven, ask for forgiveness, forgive myself than from there i was able to forgive those around me realizing i had no control of persons places or things, But the biggest step for progress for me was to set all my anguish at the cross and put Jesus first in my heart above all things controllable or uncontrollable. As i realized Jesus was my very best friend ,I was able to share all my issues with him spiritually. (WE) began to sort out our issues together. I till this day truelly count on him to help me resolve any issue i have in my life(Big Or Small) as long as i struggle to do the best i can.In other wards for me ... as long as i do the best that i can so will he in all aspects of my life. This does not mean i have to be perfect, unfortunately there was only one who was perfect and that was Jesus who was perfect so that we can be forgiven.
I hope that something here will help, as you take baby steps for yourself remember to reward yourself . Each day clean is a day i believe the Angels celebrate.
Hope to see you here more.
Sincerely; Larry

[msc1963007]

larry thank you so much you have given me more to think about. Tomarrow they put my Farther in law to rest. I did not think I was welcome. I got a call alittle while ago and was asked if I would like to say good bye to him. That made me feel welcome. I feel bad about all that has been done, But now its time to step it up with Jesus, I can and will get the job done. He sees all and I have nothing to fear I will contune to get better with every clean day. God Bless All

[larrynboys]

hi Mike. I was just wondering how things are going for you . We are still praying
Sincerely; Larry

[CAPTAINZING2000]

mORNING gLORY, tHAT'S THE BIGGEST FEAR I HAVE. i DON'T WANT MY KIDS DOING THE SAME THINGS i DID!!!!!! i JUST WANT TO SHAKE THEM AND TELL THEM IT'S A ROAD FILLED WITH HEARTACHE AND SORROW. aLL I CAN DO NOW IS LIVE A GOOD AND DECENT LIFE. i'VE TOLD MY SON TO CALL IF HE'D BEEN DRINKING NO Q. ASKED. i SAID, STAY WHERE YOU ARE. WHATEVER, DON'T GET BEHIND A WHEEL. I PRAY, HE USES HIS HEAD WHEN HE IS OUT WITH FRIENDS

[larrynboys]

Zing.. I fear for my kids as well , I know they have the addictive personality. The thing i know now is to be the best example and give the best advice I can, but that doesn't make the fear go away. They are only 6 and 7 now and the youngest is 3 months, but they grow so fast I look forward to there success. but at the same time fear possible failure. Thank God I'm not teaching them to be the best drug adddict they can be.

[Captain Morgan]

May GOD Bless all recovering Drug addicts.

This quote reminds me of this passage in Luke:

Luke 7 (King James Version)
King James Version (KJV)
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36And one of the Pharisees desired him that he would eat with him. And he went into the Pharisee's house, and sat down to meat.
37And, behold, a woman in the city, which was a sinner, when she knew that Jesus sat at meat in the Pharisee's house, brought an alabaster box of ointment,
38And stood at his feet behind him weeping, and began to wash his feet with tears, and did wipe them with the hairs of her head, and kissed his feet, and anointed them with the ointment.
39Now when the Pharisee which had bidden him saw it, he spake within himself, saying, This man, if he were a prophet, would have known who and what manner of woman this is that toucheth him: for she is a sinner.
40And Jesus answering said unto him, Simon, I have somewhat to say unto thee. And he saith, Master, say on.
41There was a certain creditor which had two debtors: the one owed five hundred pence, and the other fifty.
42And when they had nothing to pay, he frankly forgave them both. Tell me therefore, which of them will love him most?
43Simon answered and said, I suppose that he, to whom he forgave most. And he said unto him, Thou hast rightly judged.
44And he turned to the woman, and said unto Simon, Seest thou this woman? I entered into thine house, thou gavest me no water for my feet: but she hath washed my feet with tears, and wiped them with the hairs of her head.
45Thou gavest me no kiss: but this woman since the time I came in hath not ceased to kiss my feet.
46My head with oil thou didst not anoint: but this woman hath anointed my feet with ointment.
47Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much: but to whom little is forgiven, the same loveth little.
48And he said unto her, Thy sins are forgiven.
49And they that sat at meat with him began to say within themselves, Who is this that forgiveth sins also?
50And he said to the woman, Thy faith hath saved thee; go in peace.

Some of us need more forgiveness than others. I'm one of those people.

Mike

[Free to love]

Mike,
I'm sorry to hear about your losses. You will be in my prayers as well.
Your mother will see her drug free son, just as my grandparents will see their drug free granddaughter. When we all come together in God's kingdom, they will see. Please forgive yourself !!! I have the same tendencies. I'm going to tell you what my friends tell me. Put away that baseball bat that you keep beating youself over the head with. Jesus has forgiven you, it's time to forgive yourself !!!! (see the scripture that Capt. M posted).
Keep your eyes on the Lord, He'll never fail you !!!!!!

FTL

[msc1963007]

Larry.
Thank you for asking. I am doing well. I am back to work and that keeps me busy.I wish I could say the sme for my mother in law. She has take it hard, but in time I know she will be well. my wife has spending a lot of time with her, and my daughter is staying with her.My dad went through this 2 years ago when my mom pased . Time will heal with Jesus at our side. I have learned to accept life on lifes terms. I wish I could teach her how.

[larrynboys]

Hey Mike the Power of prayer is unlimited and when we are praying to a God that has no limits on the amount of love for us anything is possible. praise the lord for you and your family and hope to hear from you some more
sincerely; larry