Sharing from my Journal

[nytepassion]

Jan 11, 2009

2009 is going to be different I declared. It was not going to be like any thing in the past. Things were going to change and be changed. I could feel it in the core of my being. One of the things that needed to change was that in the past I hadn't been reading my bible and for quite some time I had felt a conviction over it. So when 2009 rolled around I knew it was a fresh start, a time for change .. time to incorporate reading Gods word into my life.

I didn't start right away at the first of the year, but rather after the conviction was no longer bearable. As I sat thinking about how I could find time to watch tv, get on the computer, play a game, but I seemed to not be able to find time to read God's word and in that moment the truth was revealed to me that it wasn't that I couldn't find the time, but rather that I didn't make the time. I knew at that moment what I had to do so I got out my bible and opened it up where I came across a devotion that talked about treating people as human beings regardless of how they act. I smiled in my heart because it was clear to me that the Lord was speaking to me directly and beyond a shadow of a doubt I knew that my father had so many things that he wanted to tell me through reading his word.

You know many of us ask God to speak to us and we wait and wait and wait without answer. The answer can be found in His word. It is ever so imporant to pick up our bibles and to read ... I realized how many quesions I had been asking him and how I had wondered why he hadn't answered or shown me the way. I hadn't been listening. He'd been trying to tell me. I just didn't follow the nudge = "Pick up your bible my child"

That night I had a dream and satan was in it. I could not see him, but we were having a conversation of sorts and every thing that the devil said to me .. I spoke back to him the word of God. The truth of the matter is that at this time in my life the enemy is hard at work trying to cause me strife and I have found myself unprepared, unequipped to handle the situations ... To speak the word you have to know the word .. You have to read the word to know the word. I know that in order to fight the enemy and better yet to truly know my father I must read the word and hide it in my heart. It has to become a part of me and when it is a part of me I will be more like my creator. To know the word is to know Him.

Journal-ing with a,
"Passion"

[MrsMagoo]

I love to read your writing and I especially love to read your writing when your speaking about your father because it is so indicative of a true, loving, compassionate, unconditional love reflecting a true father/daughter relationship.

Keep posting your journals Nyte and keep hiding God's word in your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.

God Bless!