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06-02-2009, 04:16 AM
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| Member  Join Date: Mar 2008
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| After almost 60 days...
He relapsed. I really don't know what to say. It's raining here today and it's almost prophetic of my day to come. I felt like I got hit by a car when he told me. I smelled it on him when he came to get me from work. I asked him, "were you drinking?" And just as if I asked him what time it was, he said... "I had a beer". And with those four words, my life seemed to stop. I always knew that relapse was a part of recovery. I thought that I'd prepared for this moment. My mouth was moving. I heard myself talking about rehabs, moving, and what we were going to do next... But my heart was asking myself if I were in a dream. 
__________________ "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places..." Ephesians 6:12 |
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06-02-2009, 06:10 AM
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Oh YN.....I hope you feel Gods love envelop you right now. I'm sorry to hear this. 
__________________ "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you." (Jerem 29:11-12) |
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06-02-2009, 06:22 AM
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I haven't been keeping up to date with your husband's recovery. Has he got a sponsor? Has he been going to meetings regularly?
__________________ LIFE IS GOD'S GIFT TO YOU  WHAT YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE IS YOUR GIFT TO GOD J - Jesus first O - Others next Y - Yourself last John 14:6 |
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06-02-2009, 06:49 AM
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__________________ "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places..." Ephesians 6:12 | |
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06-02-2009, 07:11 AM
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| Member  Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: Wishin' I was on the Beach!
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|  Sending HUGS and prayers ... I remember how hard going through this is... Put the focus on you and the kids and let God take care of him.
__________________ Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change! Never allow someone to be a priority to you when you are just an option to them......... |
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06-02-2009, 07:11 AM
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I'm sorry to hear that your husband isn't ready to stop yet. When he is ready, nothing will stop him- not an ill sponsor nor anything else -- will get in his way. Hopefully he will get tired of living this way and stop doing this to himself. This life of loving someone who is active in their addiction or alcoholism can continue in such a destructive downward spiral taking innocent victims along for the ride. The trauma a grief are indescribable- as you already know, I'm sure. I will pray for him, for you & the kids. ((YDN)))
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06-02-2009, 07:29 AM
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Well, I was told, if I can find time to drink or drug, I can find the time for a meeting just as well.
__________________ LIFE IS GOD'S GIFT TO YOU WHAT YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE IS YOUR GIFT TO GOD J - Jesus first O - Others next Y - Yourself last John 14:6 |
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06-02-2009, 07:40 AM
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Yeah, I'm okay. Just going through a grieving time right now. I enrolled back in school today. I'm moving on...It'll be alright.
__________________ "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places..." Ephesians 6:12 |
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06-02-2009, 08:41 AM
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Not to hijack... but what are you going to school for? I'm thinking of going back too.....just not sure what I want to be when I grow up! LOL...
__________________ Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change! Never allow someone to be a priority to you when you are just an option to them......... |
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06-02-2009, 11:40 AM
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I am so sorry! Once upon a time, "I had a beer" would not have been an earth-stopping statement. Now -- it's everything. I hate this for you but I like and I'm encouraged that you have a plan. God has a plan too and this may be part of it. If it is, girl, you have better things waiting for you on the other side of this crushing disappointment. 
__________________ 'When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.' |
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06-02-2009, 03:36 PM
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Hello pdsales and welcome to SR. If you like, you might want to introduce yourself by starting up your own thread in this forum. This way more people will see your posts.
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06-02-2009, 09:13 PM
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Strong work on your decision to return to school, I did it and so can you!  | |
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