God than Drugs

[iljchia]

I found God, and then within a year started my drug habbit.

I feel guilty about this --- i did it all in the wrong order --- but most of all I cannot make sense of it in my head.

Anyone else go in the wrong order??
How does it make sense in your head.


PS I've been well bible versed on this by christians, and well basic texted by na --- so the less quotes the more i'd appreciate thanks

[Matangi]

Hi iljchia, I totally hear you. I have gone around things pretty upside down too.

I did do lots of drugs before getting saved but was clean after and slipped back to it worse than ever just more deeply hidden cause I'd told everyone I'd found God and was going to be fine from then on.!!


I came 'clean' to my leader/counselor and family 21 days ago and got clean (still on maintenance program but not injecting! thank God)26 days ago. After 6 years, 4 of which I was Christian and a church goer!

The best I can figure is this; when we come to God, its only a beginning not an ending. Our spirit is new, in the kingdom of light, but not so our body or soul.

Just like when a fish is caught it has to be cleaned, its scales removed and its guts taken out so we too have to be 'gutted' cleaned up by God. Delivered from addiction and emotionally healed. The fish rots if its not cleaned. Same with us as Christians if we aren't cleaned up we will go backwards.

Also remember your addiction disease probably started a long time ago it just manifested now. Its roots are from long ago. Don't beat up on yourself its dangerous. I have been so full of shame I have not gotten help or been able to tell anyone for the four years I've been Christian. Then I felt like a total fraud, but i loved Jesus at the same time.

I discovered that my true Christian friends didn't care less about my "great big secret" they only rejoiced in my healing and wanted to know how to help!!! Satan is a liar don't ever let condemnation come on you. Look for help, be discerning who you tell (only trustworthy people) and don't give up finding healing for the cause of your addiction.

For lots the 12 steps provides such a framework. I don't know much about them, am planning on finding out more. But counselling and inner healing ministry can do a lot too, has for me, I feel more freedom and awesome peace than I ever have from this ministry.