Taken Hostage

[NeedingHelp7]

Hello all,
I had a dream the other night I saw myself all tied up with tape on my mouth. Like I was a hostage.

This dream has really bothered me, but in real life I have been isolated, isolation forced by my AH. No car. I can't go to some meetings that I loved because he is there, churches, because he is there. AH and cheater, and AS have tried to shut my mouth, not to reveal what they have done, I have spoken up that is why they are gone. AH has been gone 1 1/2 yrs, many court appearances, but he is still very sneaky, dirty etc.. I just got an order of protection on my older son. I couldn't take another day. I just feel so alone sometimes. They are both gone now, and I am greiving the loss.

Court is on Sept 26 concerning visits of my little son w/ my AH (now ordered supervised visits), and AH is trying to get joint custody, and unsupervised visits even though he hasn't remained sober.

Please pray concerning all of this
Thankyou, NH7

[reginaterrae]

You have my prayers, NH7!

And I will pray for the day when you are strong enough to go wherever you want to go whether he is there or not, without him throwing you off balance.

I am reminded of something I heard many years ago that stuck in my mind. Israel was struggling with the problem of violence against women, there had been a string of rapes or something. Someone in the Knesset proposed imposing a curfew on women -- for their protection. Golda Meir got up and said they should impose the curfew on MEN ... they are the perpetrators! It was one of those DUH moments.....

Why are you the one not going to the meetings & churches? How does he have the power to keep you out? So, I pray for you to tip over the paper tiger, reclaim your space, your sources of healing, and to remember that you are always at the center of a God-bubble ... protected from outside harm. The AH may (for now) be more powerful than you are, but GOD is more powerful than AH is, and GOD is on YOUR side.

Blessings
Regina Terrae

[IO Storm]

Amen reginaterrae!

How (many) churches does AH attend? Find one AH does not. I will pray..

But you must do some things for yourself. I take cabs.

If you will take action...your mind and spirit will follow..and God will

do His part. He always does.

[cmc]

Like I was a hostage.

I read your post earlier and waited to respond. I believe that God has good plans for your life- a life of freedom. It was like you were a hostage but....you aren't anymore and with God's help I believe you will find a new and better road ahead.

I will continue to pray for you to find all the comfort and strength you need during this time.

Thank you for sharing with us.

[NeedingHelp7]

Thankyou all for praying, and your words of encouragement and wisdom. You don't know how much it means to me.... words from Heaven...and I feel strengthened already.

I'm going to Alanon, which helps a lot. I was going to CR (Celebrate Recovery), which I love, but I had to leave it because AH goes there ( but I hear he skips weeks at a time). I won't go even if there is a chance of him being there. I had to detach from him. I just haven't found another church since AH left. The church we went to ended up with him sitting on one side and me on the other, so it was uncomfortable. So I stopped going there, then he stopped. If I go back there, he will find out I go there and he will go there.
That is how he is.


I am doing things for myself and child, taking buses, cabs for groceries. It's different, but yet another journey. While walking I meet more people than I ever did before driving. With people that are hurting, especially, I have to be careful. Because I'm always wanting to help, and they stay on my mind constantly, I don't know why that is. I have always been this way.

I was walking today, and thinking about all the women and children in the homes around my neighborhood that have a possible abusive drug addicted/drug dealer husband and father, hostages afraid to speak, and my heart grieved. Their men paced the streets (I literally saw this today) like a pack of wolves guarding whatever.

And ....amazingly today in the neighborhood I held a baby, 3 mnths, and colored with a child, age 2 who were taken from their mother and father, due to domestic violence. They were put in the custody of a relative (my neighbor), after leaving a shelter. The father still goes after the mother even with an order of protection... When the mother came there to see her children, I asked her if the father was on drugs she said yes. The father has broken the childs arm before, and beaten the mother many times over.

Oh how these people need Jesus, and some need justice.

God Bless You all...thankyou for being here.

Huggs,
NH7

[MNGirlyGirl]

Prayers going out to you.

[IO Storm]

NH

It seems like your inner strength is growing..

Bless you.

Continued prayers for protection and guidance.