Please pray for my children... and family... What a week!

[Gertiegirl]

Ack - what a gawsh darn, awful, hideous, someone hold me up cause Im about to fall type of week! Argh! I have a few prayer requests, but as per usual Gert self, I will fill in the story also.....

This school week - lets see. Monday started off OK. I went to see my fantastic alcohol counsellor and we achieved some really good work, and I came clean about a few recent slips. It was real positive, and kept my feet firm on my path. Also realised a few truths about my spiritual self that I need to work on... Good session! His offices are directly oppisite the hospital and my in-laws had an appt there, they volunteered to take me home (I dont currently have a car - my neighbour pranged into it a month or so ago) so I went to wait with them. Which meant I was sitting in the waiting room when my mother-in-law (and good friend) came out ashen faced... My father in law had just been diagnosed with cancer... We coped, we pulled it altogether and have a positive outlook...

Tuesday I had a Dr appt for myself to deal with some of the physical effects I am having with the no grog. Seriously my hormones have gone crazy! And I had to come off the naltrexone cause it blocks the effects of opiate based pain killers and I get horrible migraines. I wasn't happy about coming off naltrexone even though Im going on antibuse. But then my Dr talked me into a script for a month supply of sleeping pills... I mean - hello! Im an ADDICT! But still, I love the guy, so again coping OK. I then got a phone call in the arvo as I was discharged from my detox programee, which is good, but my Pdoc and detox nurse there were fantastic, so it was a bit of a surprise, I didn't realise they discharge after 6 weeks.

Weds my 6 yr old woke with a hideous fever and I swear he left his lungs somewhere in his bed he was coughing so much... So, back off to the Dr we go.. He has a chest infection, upper respitory tract infection, severe athsma flair up AND we found the hole in his eardrum from his last set of grommets still hasn't healed over three years later so he has to go back to ENT specialist for that, in meantime on antibots, prednisone, athsma inhalers and regular meds to relieve pain and keep temp down. So I had a very miserable boy at home Weds and Thurs. Fun fun fun with the weather crappy (freezing and wet) and as I note - no car so I have to walk with sick kid, to collect the other two from school. Ugh.

Today (Im a kiwi, so consider timezone) is Fri. 6yr old finally healthy enough to return to school YAY! Except my 8yr old turned up in my bed at 3.30am this morning with a sky high temp and complaining of nausea... Great, so now I got a different one sick! I figured it was just a virus so kept her home from school but we managed watching "The Suite life" and "Hannah Montana" between resting today, so I thought not worth bothering our Dr -again- this week. And of course she seemed OK... UNTIL the Dr office shut and thats about when all of a sudden she complains of severe headache, dizzyness, weakness, sore neck, sensitivity to light and a temp check said she was at 40.3 deg celcius! AFTER medication... GOOD GRIEF! We have a history in NZ of Bacterial Menningicocal B at almost epidemic proportions, so no mother I know anyway would mess with those symptoms... So off to the awfully expensive after hours Dr we go.... Where he diagnosed... a virus! Keep doing what you're doing pretty much.... Grrrrrr...

Im tired, physically and emotionally. I hate when my kids are sick, I just want to fix them, and sometimes I can't. I also cannot be the brick for what seems like my whole family (extending also I mean, my step mother having cancer treatment, my father an alcoholic, my mother is emotionally needy) this early in recovery! I can't handle the needyness, I can't handle the lectures and I just can't handle anything much other then just me getting through each day right at the moment, but somehow I am expected too. I just wanna chill with my hubby and kids, let them all recooperate and feel better... Am I completely selfish???

Pray for those around me, especially my kids and their current health. Also pray for the health of my extended and loved family. And maybe just maybe, pray for someone to see the pressure all this has placed on me this early into recovery and come rescue me just a bit... just relieve some pressure....

Sorry for the ramble - I had to vent somewhere! lol So you lot wear it here! Ha Ha. Thanks for reading, and for your prayers...

[cmc]

I'm praying for you Gertie and for your loved ones too.
Please remember to make taking care of yourself a top priority.

[anubus]

I just prayed for you
Hope things get better soon.

[suz10]

What a week!! I am praying for you and sending hugs your way. I hope things are better soon.

[chickenlady]

Hey Gerts! I am praying for "you" first off! Then your precious kids, hubby and the rest of your family. Stay positive and don't be sure to look after "YOU" first. You are the core of that family!

Huggs

[IO Storm]

Gert!

I completely missed this somehow..

I will be praying daily. The Lord laid the burden as I read your post.

Love,

Sherry

[Gertiegirl]

Thanks for all your prayers peeps. The kids are finally on the up and up, and all returned to school fever free and coping reasonably well today... The 8yr old was seriously ill with high temps and severe pain for 3 days in the end but thankfully with rest and plenty of pain killers she has coped OK. Funny though, it always amuses me the way God answers prayers sometimes... For example by the end of Saturday night after a long frustrating day with a sick child, I had to conceed I had been snapping at her a bit. She was wearing my patience a little thin. I prayed in confession - and asked God to teach me patience and the ability to be more empathetic of her suffering. Well - he certainly has done that... Now I have the bug... my head feels like lead, my nose is running, I just want to curl up and sleep. I feel like whinging, and snapping and demanding.... So... I now have an awful lot more sympathy for how she felt on Saturday don't I! Ugh - we are being pretty badly battered right now... And no matter how I feel, I have to go do the shopping tonight... Ugh.... What doesn't kill us makes us stronger right!

[IO Storm]

Been praying daily for you and your family Gertigirl!