This Is Day 1 I Will Make It!!!!!

[want2live4him]

To All My Christians In Recovery, Thank you so very much for all your words and messages of hope, prayer, and comfort. Yesterday although I did get high, I did a lot of contemplating. I decided that I really had enough of this life. I looked in the mirror and didnt like what I saw. I know that the first step towards getting where I'm going is to decide that I'm not going to stay where I'm at!!! My next step was that I deleted all my dealer friends numbers from my telephone and SIM card. I prayed last night (even though I was using), and prayed the first thing this morning. I asked God for a sober day and prayed that Jesus would deliver His Holy Spirit to fall on me. I surrender to His Will. I even received word that ATT wants me to come next week to test for a Technician Computer job!!!! Thats encouragement too, I know I have to be clean and sober and ready. I do see some light. I'm not really overly anxious about the job because I have commited to first go to a center on the 8th of September. If I don't do this first, I know I'm going to waste any earnings the moment I get them. Thats the lie of the enemy telling me I am ok when I know that I'm not. (NOT YET BUT I WILL BE WITH THE STRENGTH OF THE LORD), because "I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENTHENS ME" AND "IF I RESIST THE ENEMY HE WILL FLEE". So I ask for all your prayers as I begin to concentrate on making today my first clean and sober day. I am being productive in other ways today. I choose not to use today. God bless all of you and I hope you all have a wonderful sober day.
p.s. Gertie thanks for the PM yesterday, it was very deep and thought provoking.:praying:ghug

[Gertiegirl]

want2.... At the risk of sounding condescending - I am proud of you! To me recovery is all about choices - you have to initially make the choice to stay clean and dry. You have made a powerful positive choice and I pray for the strength of the Lord to rest upon you as you go about your day. Temptations will come your way, the enemy will be hard at work to see you not succeed, but you can and you will succeed if you truely are at your end. Old line, when you come to the end of yourself - you will see God begin.

A few practical tips though - 1/ I suggest you make sure you inform at least one close (non-using) friend or close family member of exactly what you're going through. No holding back or skimming over details of how much you have been using or how you have been feeling. Lay it all out. You are going to need alot of emotional and perhaps physical support. Maybe even request your Pastor and/or Elders to pray for you?

2/Seek medical advice and intervention. If you have been a heavy user you may just find that detoxing and withdrawals may be very very hard on you physically. Any symptoms of severe withdrawal hop yourself of to a Dr ASAP. Dont mess with withdrawal. And you may have a couple weeks clean before you go into treatment centre - which will be fantastic! ... but plan on doing the treatment anyway. The group therapy etc etc will be very beneficial.

3/ Keep your eyes on the Lord, cmc had a thread awile ago about Peter walking on water - read it and keep going back to it when your faith wavers. You too can have the powerful faith that Peter did which will allow you to achieve amazing things.

You're doing great darl, and have made some awesome determined steps. You go for it! Kia Kaha - stay strong.

Luvs and blessings,
Gerts

[Hope]

I know you can do it!

Keep your eyes upon God and focus on one day at a time. God will give you everything you need.

I'm praying for you!

[rozied]

Dear Want, Wanting to quit with your whole heart, mind, and soul is the 1st step in getting there. I know now that you have surrendered your will to the Lord's He will give you the strength you need. Plus don't be afraid to reach out for help if you need it.
I am praying for you,
Diane
PS I am rooting for you too!!!

[rayofsunshine]

:praying

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
Deuteronomy 31:6

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10

"It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he enables me to stand on the heights. He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze. You give me your shield of victory, and your right hand sustains me; you stoop down to make me great. You broaden the path beneath me, so that my ankles do not turn."
Psalm 18:32-36

"Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long. Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love, for they are from of old. Remember not the sins of my youth and my rebellious ways; according to your love remember me, for you are good, O LORD."
Psalm 25:4-7