THE SHOOL OF LIFE(my worst subjectisemotionally pain)

[BUTTERFLY-7]

HEY guy's what's up I'm so distress I'm trying 2 understand this computer 3 day's ago I was having problem loging in the computer cuoldn't register my password my mind is giving up on me I'm loosing my memorie I need answers and I know my GOD talk's too people thruogh people I'could pass must of all the test's of life eccept the test of emotionally pain is like every thing I've learn in bible class and all the message's GOD gives me and ministretion go's out the window I feel like peter in the middle of the ocean crossing with the diciple's 2 the other side when the stoor the devil(I revuke him in JESU'S name) I'm afraid of me of my lack of knowledge and understanding is like when u are good in a subject in school and u have a test coming u walk in that room with confident and when u have hard time with a specifically subject like my worst subject was and is still math u will studie but when u walk 2 that room u are shaken and afraid cause u know that's not ur best subject well that's how I feel about the test's of life specially now that I'don't have and escape goat to run 2 I must stay sober 2 confront the storm's of life and grow with it I need replies because my worst subject in the school of life is alway's been pain not phisically but emotional pain please help me understand what is it abuot pain that I just can't seem to grow and pass 2the next level all replies will b accept it thank u BLESS&B-BLESS

[best]

With faith and trust in the Lord, we shall be given our every need...yes even the words to say.
Paul tells us that even if we were dragged away to prison, the Lord through the Holy Spirit will guide our words even at such a time as that.


Zechariah's Song

67His father Zechariah was filled with the Holy Spirit and prophesied:
68"Praise be to the Lord, the God of Israel,
because he has come and has redeemed his people.
69He has raised up a horn of salvation for us
in the house of his servant David
70(as he said through his holy prophets of long ago),
71salvation from our enemies
and from the hand of all who hate us—
72to show mercy to our fathers
and to remember his holy covenant,
73the oath he swore to our father Abraham:
74to rescue us from the hand of our enemies,
and to enable us to serve him without fear ...

Romans 5:5
And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

[BUTTERFLY-7]

but everything u said sound's nice but I just don't feel it is true do what u said about been in prison I'm concious that I'm paying my consequence of my sin's of contaminated my mind with drug's and I understand that he could heal me but he choose not to do it like ur slogen said he gives me pain so I could keep my self away from worhtly cares and keep me close 2 him and I'm sorry what I'm about 2 say that I get mad that he doesn't want 2 heal me I think it's not fair all I want him is to heal me from my bipolar I've been in this prison since I was diagnost in 2004 of this bipolard disease is bad enough that I have the disease of addiction and now bipolar give me a break I ask him 2 heal me I confess it every day I been with out my medication since the ending of 2004 do to the fact I ain't got health inssurance why unto when I will b in this prison is so sad I'mso sad in side my husband is not too support it he has a brother that's bipolar if anything he should understand me he doesn't nobody I'm alone in this journey when I want 2 talk about it is like they see me as if I'm loca(crazy)I'm not loca I just need help thanx BEST 4r listnen 2 me

[best]

God can heal you but He may have other plans for you as well.
There is a nice book that helps explain such things a little better.

This lady has been through a lot in her life so she knows what she is talking about...
Joni Eareckson Tada
Her website will list some of the books she has written.
31 Days Toward Overcoming Adversity is one of her books.
Joni and Friends

As for finding people that understand about being bipolar. We have some wonderful people that show up here and give great support for each other.
Here is a link of support that they have started as well.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...r-coaster.html (BP Town----Open to anyone who rides the roller coaster)

Your not alone. The Lord is with you and there are people here who understand and care.

[angelgirl]

Best is right..

I struggled with this alot too.. I didnt understand either. I thought that God should just heal me as well from my bipolar. I am a Christian, and I thought I had a demon in me. I really did. I still struggle sometimes with this belief. But it's not true. Best is right, God
does things his way, just as it says in the bible. Everything is done for the good of the kingdom of Heaven. We may not understand why we are bipolar, and we may not understand alot of things that happen in life, but God understands, we may never understand until we meet him. We can only trust that he knows what is best, and that there is a reason, his reason, and his reasons are always best, because he loves us more that we could ever imagine. He does not want us to suffer, just as he did not want his son to suffer, Jesus.. He loves you very much.

The best thing to do, is to keep talking about it. Find as much support as you can.
Do you have a church? I hope you do,, because if you do, you can look for support in
your church. Remember that churches are not for perfect people, but for hurting people.

I just try to live one day at a time. It's hard I know. But we know that we have God on our side.. We can also have Christian friends on our side. I have a Recovery group, and there are other bipolar people in my group. It's called Celebrate Recovery. It's a Christian based 12 step group. Maybe you could find a group like that? Open up as much as you can, when you find people you trust.

Blessings,
Becky

[BUTTERFLY-7]

u guy's 4'r u'r support most of the churche's I've been goin'g 2 are spanish pentecostal churche's and they are not well educated on any mental health awareness or Recovery A.A./N.A. the church I'm going right now is so much better than all the other churches I was going 2 my pastor he him self is a ex addict but he is not doing recovery but he could relate

[angelgirl]

Butterfly

Why don't you go talk to your pastor? He would understand if he is in recovery. We don't ever go our of recovery, ir we were an addict, we may not be in active using for years and years, but I do believe that your pastor will understand, and he would be a very good person to make an appt. with to go share with too. They do understand our pain, that's why they are pastors. Pastors are some of the most wonderful people on earth.

Also, about being Bipolar, isn't there somewhere that you can go to help you get some medication? Isn't there a clinic? I don't know how much $ your husband makes, and I am not asking, but I am sure there are clinics that help if if he doesn't make enough to cover the high cost of the meds. There are also the drug companies themselves that give free meds, once you see a doctor, but that's also if you are under certain income guidlines, and the cost of living in New York being so high, I would imagine that would help, I am sure there are many people that struggle with being able to pay for meds. I think it's worth checking into.

Also, I pray with my pastor about my bipolar. Now I say that, and we do that, because it's possible that God could heal me of this, but he may not either. That's up to God.

I am not judging you, by any means, please don't ever, ever think that. I am only just trying to help... I feel close to you, even though you live far from me.

Have in there, smile, and have a blessed day.

Becky

[BUTTERFLY-7]

4'r u'r concern but is not as easy as u think maybe because I left a little detail out please guard this info..wiht u'r life I'm not a U.S.A. resident or citizen there o.k.I don't caulifie 4'r health inssurance or medical bennifit's I've only got 2 month married and just 2 get my green card I have 2 waite aproximaly a year into marriage in odder 4'r my husband 2 petittion me and on top of that I have 2 deal with my husband's treatment like I said in my other post reda them I know this was a mistake getting married with him I knew from the beggining this wasn't from GOD but no I just didn't want 2 listen because all I want it was my greencard please don't judge who ever read's this just pray 4'r me

[angelgirl]

You are in my prayers.

Blessings,
Becky

[BUTTERFLY-7]

U ARE IN MY2 GIRL DON'T LOOSE HOPE THE JOURNEY OF A THOUSAND MILES IS NOT CONQUER ON HOW FAST,U RUN BUT THAT U GET THERE,IS FUNNY IN HOW I COULD GIVE ADVICE AND NOT REPLI IT ON ME LTE US PRAY.