Hanging in There by a Thread

[ninelives]

Just joined this online site a couple days ago, found it while I was researching what kind of withdrawals I could expect. I have been through withdrawals many times but on much stronger painkillers. Its my third day off of Tyenol 4's. Its bad, feel sore right to the bone. Thoughts are scattered.
I had been sober for about a year and these last five months had several relapses on other drugs and alcohol and have been popping pain pills daily.
I am a christian and excepted Christ into my life in 2006, after a near fatal overdose that landed me in intensive care for about 4 days.
So as I took that first drink, pill, hoot, I isolated myself from God, all my christian and sober friends. Well its been hell, I know that is not the life God planned for me. He does discipine those He loves. It came to the point that I felt no joy and the fear was creeping in, BIG TIME". I heard about this celebrate recovery group that had started at a local church. I attended it last night for the first time. I heard a interesting story about how a shepard deals with the sheeps that keep wandering. When one of his sheep strays he will find it and literally break its legs. Then he will carry it on his shoulders until it heals and can walk again. This way the sheep won't stray and by carring the broken sheep on his shoulder they will learn to know his voice. Well this story touched me to the inner core. I can relate in the way that when I started to stray things went from bad to worse, I was not only injured physically but deeply spirtually. I have to learn to walk again and listen to my Shepard's voice. He will lead me and guide me. Isaiah 40:11 God Bless you and thanks for letting me share.

[CAPTAINZING2000]

praying for your recovery.

If, God is for us, who can be against us?

[Lily]

I can soooo relate 100% to everything you wrote on here. From the (spanking those he loves to the sheep and the breaking of the leg) I too am a Christian, but instead of getting saved in 2006, I got saved in 1989. (thinking I would know waaay better, huh?) I have had years of sobriety, but blew it on t-4's and vicodin.

You can do it! Just work through the crappiness. You will so at peace when it passes. You will be able to pray & you will feel real true joy once again. Today I have 58 days Clean and sober and my relationship with the Lord had increased 10-fold. this time I did it by going to AA, but whatever works for you. We do not have a CR nearby, so I go to the secular meetings and they are better than none.

I am glad you are feeling the conviction cuz that is KEY in not wanting to go there anymore. you don't want to live in isolation from your savior. Just pray and repent and keep asking him for strength to help you. Another thing I did was I told some key ppl in my life. you are only as sick as your secrets. I told my husband, and a couple of dear women i could count on. Now when I feel a craving coming, I just pray and it passes.

I am praying for you!

Sheila

[best]

Welcome to SR

I have not been to a celebrate recovery meeting but from all I hear about them...You will find some great fellowship and support at them.
Glad to have another join us here at SR. We wlcome your input.

[MNGirlyGirl]

Welcome to SR. So glad you are trying to turn your life around. You are lucky to have also found a great christian recovery group. Best wishes.

[IO Storm]

Ninelives....

I used up 6 in addiction relapses.......plus more with childhood illnesses, auto accidents,

etc. And who knows how many more situations our angels have intervened upon that

we will not know until we move onto Glory?

We are so fortunate to have a loving Father who has watched and cared for us in our

struggles, Nine.

Keep us posted on your success......

:

IO