Just an FYI.

[namommy]

I don't know why I feel the need to post this.

In another post, By his Blood commented that I have alot going on with my daughter and my husbands surgery. That is just the tip of the ice berg. I had to chuckle to myself and thought "If you only knew". Then I realized that some people on here don't know and I felt compelled to post this.

just a quick overview.

The past 18 months (since nov. 2005)

We have had 8 family members pass away, 4 friends passed, just this week a close friends brother passed and her pain is my pain.

My husband lost his job, started his own business then the first day of work had a heart attack, quadruple by-pass surgery, the month he was supposed to go back to work, the incision herniated and he needed hernia surgery. He has been in constant pain since. He has neuroma at the incision site, which he is getting steroid injections for, he has COPD, they found a 5 mm Nodule in his left lung that they are watching, his Hernia repair ruptured a few months ago and he had another surgery yesterday.

My daughter is just getting clean, my son at one point crushed his finger to the point that it looked like ground meat and they couldn't even stitch it and he required a plastic surgeon.

I have my own fair share of medical problems that are being pushed to the back burner to take care of everyone else. I lost my job back in December, and started a new one in January.

We are behind in all of our bills, we are now 3 months behind in the rent, we have no TV because our cable is shut off. I have cheap internet so we can sell things on Craigs list to get some extra cash as we need it. WE get our food from food banks, and do the best we can to get by.

Basically, I have a full time job, 4 kids, a disabled husband, and to quote a song..."I get knocked down, but I get back up again..."

My plate is VERY full. This is what lead me back to Jesus. I needed strength.

Laurie

[caileesnana]

There is a song that says "we must go through the valleys, to stand upon the mountainn...."" There is a song that says "we must go through the valleys, to stand upon the mountainn...."" You will make it through these tough times!!

[best]

As full as your plate is.... it is good to see you moved some things off the plate.
You can pass the plate any time. Jesus will carry the whole plate for you.

I think you already know that but we (me included) need reminders every so often.

[splendra]

(((((Laurie))))))

Remembering you and yours in my prayers...

[Grasshopper]

God has a picture of you,
on His dresser,
God Bless,and may Gods Peace be with you always,

[chero]

(((((Laurie)))))

I didn't know! I'm glad you shared that! We're praying for you and your family!

[serina]

Laurie,
I knew some of the things you had been through but not all of it. I'm glad you shared. I will keep you in my prayers.

[namommy]

Years ago, I had found my way to Jesus, and something happened at the Church I was going to that turned me away. I maintained my belief in God for a little while, but eventually even started to question if God existed.

Someone recently told me that God allowed all of these things to happen to us, knowing that it would eventually bring me to my knees and back to him. It was God's way of going after his one lost sheep. His way of bringing me back to the herd.

She also told me that now that He has me back, things will start to get better. That night I KNOW I heard God's voice telling me that everything will be OK.

Well, so far this last surgery went well. If he checks out OK at his Post op visit, Steve may be able to go back to work about mid-July. No more fighting the Government for Disability, no more getting angry at the system when they turn us away when we ask for help. Maybe once we get back on our feet financially, and those worries are out of the way, we can start enjoying life again.

With all of this in mind, why am I so depressed the past couple of days? I can't shake it. I didn't even get out of bed to go to work today. I only got out of bed at 1:30 because I had to take my son to work. I am forcing myself to stay up and post right now.

I should be walking on air. There is actually a light at the end of our tunnel. What is wrong with me?

Laurie

[best]

Originally Posted by namommy

I should be walking on air. There is actually a light at the end of our tunnel. What is wrong with me?

Laurie

Nothing.

Ever walk up a hill and when you get about 2 feet from the top your muscles start to hurt? You push on and finish the last few steps knowing that rest is but a few steps away. You see the top of the mountain, your muscles are hurting, .... I see nothing wrong with being a little tired after a hike like that.
Enjoy the break and well deserved rest.

[Alera]

Originally Posted by namommy

I should be walking on air. There is actually a light at the end of our tunnel. What is wrong with me?

Laurie

I don't know. I just know it happens to me too. After a major stressor and the light on the tunnel turns on, depression sets in for a couple days for me as well. Perhaps I just had been so wound up I had stopped having the chance to see the postives in life?

Either way, I want you to know that for me, this does pass. In fact, I had this exact same type of depression starting last Friday, and it is just lifting today.

[namommy]

I'm feeling a bit better today. I had a busy day at work, and I barely had time to think about being depressed. Now all I can focus on is my aching feet and legs.

Things are falling into place. Steve got a job offer that will start in 2 to 3 weeks, just about the time we figured the doctor would release him. He was offered a job as a manager of a mens recovery house that will be opening in our area. The houses that are run by this group are legit, well run houses and not the typical "Junkie mills" that we usually have around here. This is great for him to get started. He also has 3 construction jobs lined up for next month. He will get a helper to do the heavy work.

So, God told me it was going to be OK, and it's OK.

Thank you all for your support and encouragement.

[rayofsunshine]

(((Laurie))) Praying for you and your family. Glad you are feeling better and your husband is getting well enough to work, and he's been blessed with a job offer. God is so good, and he is taking care of you and yours. Thank you for sharing.