Could please use prayer

[chero]

I'm really struggling today, yesterday, everyday. Next weekend will be one month since I left AH.

I can't detach, still. I'm terrible at no contact. I love him and I hate him.

I just want to do what God wants me to do but I don't know what that is. So, I always heard that when you don't know what to do then do the last thing you know God told you to do. But, I just NEED answers--I need a plan.

A very bad, old habit creeped back into my life this weekend. Of course, I don't know. I guess I just feel so bad and I'm tired of feeling that way and this made me feel better--but it wasn't enough. I knew that would happen. I just can't feel bad enough or hurt enough.

I thought maybe I could find a forum on here to help me with this particular problem I have but I couldn't find one.

I just feel alone and lost and...hmm...I feel like I did when I was living with an abusive alcoholic. At least that was human contact.

Please pray for me.
~Cheryl

[TryingisDying]

Praying for you today....Just ask God to be with you.....you are never alone!!!

[Alera]

Just said a prayer for you, Cheryl. I hope things look up for you soon.

[cmc]

I'll be praying for you too.

[best]

Cheryl

Prayers are with you.

[duet_4-8]

I'm praying for you too! God is faithful and He will take care of you. Never will He hold your hand more tightly than when He is leading you through the dark. Trust Him. If you don't know what to do, then be still and know that He is God.

(((HUGS)))

[caileesnana]

Ever read the poem about Fooprints in the Sand? God is always w/ you, carrying you when you believe!
You are in my prayers,
susan

[rayofsunshine]

Cheryl you are in my prayers. The Lord will forgive you of your bad habit, just ask for forgiveness. Tomorrow is a day for a new beginning.
Take it one day at a time. Things will get better, a little each day.


"Show me your ways, O Lord, teach me your paths, guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in You all day long." - PSALM 25:4,5 NIV

[namommy]

I'll keep you in my prayers.

[chero]

I went to a revival last night in OKC and the preacher said something I found helpful.

He said we should stop having Faith FOR and start having Faith IN.

I've been believing God FOR my husband's salvation and I forgot all about my faith IN God.

You know, if God said it then all I have to do is believe God and have faith in God--not in the promise. The promise is God's to bring to pass--my job is to trust and believe in Him and stop trying to play God.

I've really been trying to understand if my decision to move out was the right one. I've seen it as giving up on my AH.
But I'm trying to remember that God loves him more than I do and wants him saved more than I do and maybe God had to move me out of the way to be able to work in his life.

Sad but true.

As for MY other problem. Everyday is a new day. God says his mercies are new every morning. So, today, I realize that God has made up a big batch of mercy with my name on it and today's mercy won't be good tomorrow so I better use now.

Thanks for the prayers, Everyone.
I feel better today!

[duet_4-8]

Originally Posted by chero

maybe God had to move me out of the way to be able to work in his life.

I struggled with these same thoughts of 'giving up' on my marriage, and still do from time to time. But I do firmly believe that God wanted me to finally get out of His way so He could get to my exah.

God puts consequences on rebellious behavior in order to bring one back to Him, and I was standing in the way of those consequences. Rebellion begins as fun and games but eventually it leads to hard work. God allows it to become a heavey burden. Why in the world would my ex ever seek God if he was comfortable and well-respected and successful in spite of his abuse and addiction?

I couldn't save him from himself, but God can. You know what they say about good intentions? The road to he** is paved with them.

Of course the bottom line is whether or not my ex will allow God to work in his life, but that is something that is completely out of my hands, no matter what I do or don't want to happen.

I, too, have found that I go off in all directions in my mind if I don't seek God's guidance as soon as I open my eyes in the morning. I am easily led into mental captivity when I seek other answers to needs and desires that only God can meet.

Most of us would never acknowledge God as God alone if we didn't experience crises when no one else could help. That goes for our A's as well as ourselves.

(((HUGS)))