life and anxiety.

[namommy]

I went to Mass this morning as planned. I felt great. I talked to the priest afterward about meeting with me and my husband about a few issues. That went well.

Since then, my head is being bombarded with everything that I have on my plate right now. The Good, Bad, and indifferent. It sent me into an anxiety attack. Chest pains, shortness of breath, shaking, crying, just feel out of my mind.

The final attack, came a few minutes ago. A call from my landlord who has been working with us during this time that my husband has been sick and trying to get on disability. He is normally very good about making arrangements to pay the back rent and catch up with what we owe when we can. Tonite however, he is VERY DRUNK. I could hardly understand a word he said. He gets unreasonable when he is drinking. He wants answers and time tables, and he backed out on a business deal he had with my husband. That call just made the pains in my chest even worse.

I can't sit still and quiet my head, then I thought of SR. I always post in the womens forum, and now recently posting in this forum. I think I will be spending alot of time here. Especially asking questions since I am sort of new at this.

Thanks for letting me vent. even though my chest still hurts and now I feel a headache coming on.

Please keep us in your prayers.

[namommy]

Just to let you know.

I've been reading and posting and I am starting to feel better. I am still crying (which I still don't like to do), but the chest pains are going away, and I'm not shaking as much.

Thanks

[caileesnana]

I get anxiety also. Once is was so bad I was convinced I was having a heart attack. I am a RN and went directly to the ER. THe ekg was normal, just anxiety.
It doesn't go away, comes when I least need it! It can be managed.
Sounds like you're going through a rough time. Keep your faith, you will feel better.

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Laurie

Who is in control?
Who will always be there with you no matter what happens in life?
You have strong hands and a strong will. Who do you know that has bigger hands (has the whole world in His hands) and is never changing and always wants what is best for us?
When anxiety hits... Look up and remember that Jesus is always with you and will always seek to provide for your every need. I also find that He provides for my wants from time to time as well.

[GlassPrisoner]

After turning my life and will over to the care of God as I understand Him, I found the anxiety lessened considerably.

After further working my steps, and praying for knowledge of Gods will for me every morning, and taking the 3rd step daily in my morning meditation, anxiety is practically non-existent in my life. And, it's no where near what it used to be.

God didn't carry me this far to drop me on my a**. He will provide, and as Best pointed out, even kick me down a "want" every now and then.

[namommy]

I posted somewhere before, that I've prayed and asked God to either lighten my load, or give me broader shoulders to bear the burden. I gained more weight. I won't pray for that again.

I also posted that I need to slow down. Too much going on in my life that needs to be taken care of, and I keep falling under the illusion that it needs to be taken care of by me. No one else will do it right. No one else can handle it. blah, blah, blah.

Why does reading and posting in this forum make me cry? I hate crying.

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Originally Posted by namommy

Why does reading and posting in this forum make me cry? I hate crying.

Because the Lord is doing for you what you will not do for yourself.
Crying has many benefits and one of them is that it gives us an outward sign that we are letting go and letting God.

Words to a song I heard...
When you see me on my knees, it isn't because I am weak...Its that I am getting stronger.

When we are weak, He is strong. Falling to my knees lets me fill up with His strength. Allowing myself to feel my emotions...even if they bring tears does the same. It helps me open up and clears my vision to the things that the Lord is waiting to do for me. Helping me carry the burden happens to be one of the things He does...for us both.

[namommy]

I guess I'll get used to crying then.