Anxiety

[angelgirl]

Darn anxiety,

I always seem to come back to this same thing, over and over again..

When my anxiety is bad nights seem to be the worst,, but lately
my anxiety has even been there in the day time. Now I know this
does not come from the Lord. Why,? I don't know?

I do feel close to God, but when my anxiety is bad, I almost feel this
separation, it's extremely scary. I pray, and I can't concentrate as well,
I can't picture Heaven or Jesus, or anything good in my mind when I am
praying or trying to concentrate, of course, it's hard for me to concentrate when I feel this way. This is all really hard for me to say, but I really need
to say these things. I can't stand this feeling, this fear. I need to talk to
someone about it, and I am hoping someone here may at least try to understand?? But I do know this does not come from God..

Thanks for listening..
Prayers,
Becky

[Morning Glory]

"Beloved, think it NOT STRANGE concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some STRANGE thing happened unto you" (I Pet. 4:12).

"I indeed baptize you with water unto REPENTANCE: but He that comes after me is mightier than I, Whose shoes I am not worthy to bear: He shall baptize you with the Holy Spirit, AND WITH FIRE" (Matt. 3:11).

"That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perishes, though it [your faith] be TRIED IN THE FIRE, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ" (I Pet. 1:7).

"For whom the LORD loves He chastens, and scourges every son whom he receives. If you endure chastening, God deals with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chastens not?"

"Furthermore we have had fathers of our FLESH which corrected us, and we gave them reverence: shall we not much rather be in subjection unto the Father of SPIRITS, and live? For they verily for a few days chastened us after their own pleasure; but He for our profit, that we might be partakers of His HOLINESS.

Now no chastening for the present seems to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby" (Heb. 12:9-11).

Galatians 5:21-23
22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,
23Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.

"Being CONFIDENT of this very thing, that He [that’s Christ] which hath begun a good work in you WILL PERFORM IT until the day of Jesus Christ" (Phil. 1:6).

[cmc]

"Being CONFIDENT of this very thing, that He [that’s Christ] which hath begun a good work in you WILL PERFORM IT until the day of Jesus Christ" (Phil. 1:6).

Becky,
The previous post really says it all and although I do trust the Lord as you do- I often find myself in some extremely difficult situations that do not "appear" to be from Him.

This is just a lie. If I believe that God is in control...then simply put: HE IS.
If we believe the scriptures...there is NO PROMISE that all will be well with us all the time, part of the time...etc. He will always love us and never will leave us, but trials and sorrows are part of life.

One common theme in our society in some of our Christian churches, New Age religions and secular areas....is that we can be happy all the time if we have the faith or even if we think or even imagine it!!! A true bible believer knows that this is not true- NO MATTER HOW MUCH...we sometimes wish it were. God cannot be boxed in like that...HE will not tolerate it. Any other idea of self-generated powers...is in violation of the commandment to have no other gods. People from day #1 have wanted to make God in their image..it's in our fallen nature to do that. It's like saying:"If I don't like God's way then I can create my own way, my own rules." It's a form of rebellion.

There are many current books and tv shows teaching a doctrine that is not in accordance with the faith of the bible. YES...our faith can be exercised and at times what we pray and hope for does happen, but not always. It always helps me to say the Lord's Prayer-"thy will be done."

All that aside, I feel so badly for you right now and don't have any answers as to why this is happening to you. I'm sorry it is happening and all I am saying here is no way meant to make light of your suffering. I can say this because I often have the same questions too- but I must go back to what God's word says....that is our guideline and handbook for life. I do know that He is closer to us in our sufferings and He always cares and loves us.


I am not saying that you (or I) are in sin when we feel anxious or are just tired of the trials, but we know when we are not living rightly we can make ourselves feel bad because we are convicted to do better. He forgives us our sins... so that is not a valid reason or excuse to why we suffer. I think that God is very tenderhearted towards us when we suffer- even forgiving of my anger towards Him when things don't go right. I've been through trials and sorrows lately myself and it's very hard to accept a trial when I have such faith as to believe in miracles. I know HE is able to fix it. It's hard to understand the concept of a good God when bad things happen.

This is when and where our faith comes in... do we believe He is good? Well, He is good, ALL the time and I know this because the bible says so. His heart is towards us for our benefit and the things we suffer through strengthen us and enable us to give comfort to others.

Joni Tada cowrote wrote a good book about suffering... "When God Weeps" and I also recommend "When Your Rope Breaks" by Steve Brown and
"Where Is God When It Hurts" by Phillip Yancey. These all explain suffering in biblical and scientific terms and they helped me alot.
"Hinds Feet On High Places" by Hannah Hurnard is an old favorite, it's an allegory about a fictional character called Much Afraid and is very good too.

Practically speaking, maybe a visit with your doctor is needed, you have had this for some time and there may be some treatment that may help you.

I'm praying for you,
hugs,
cmc

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Becky

You feel it comes back or doesn't go away. You are living it, I am seeing it from the outside. I can see it clearer from this angle.

Your anxiety no matter how strong or how little it may be, feels strong when you are in the moment because you are feeling it directly.
It isn't so from what I see though.
Your anxiety has gotten less and less over time. You have grown so much in your walk with the Lord and the anxiety has become less and less because of it.
I am not discounting your feelings as I know they are real, I am just sharing what I see so you may see that things have improved so much over time.
Gathering the blessings of what has been done and the hopes of what is still to come may give you some peace and comfort in this moment of anxiety.
You have grown so much over time. *HUG*

[PurpleReign]

Angel,
Yeah isn't anxiety a kick in the rear?

At mass they the priest says, "useless anxiety" - which I always thought was redundant, can't think of a time in my life I've had usefull anxiety.

"For whom the LORD loves He chastens, and scourges every son whom he receives. If you endure chastening, God deals with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chastens not?"

^ I love this quote...LOVE IT. It made me realize that God's only Son didn't even escape the trials of fire, so who are we to be above Jesus? It put things in perspective for me and helped me to accept the pain.

Hugs and prayers,
PR

[screen_name]

Becky, I don't know you and these people do, so feel free to ignore this, but have you seen a doctor about the possibility of an anxiety disorder? A lot of times, this can be treated. I've gotten a Huge benefit from proper treatment.

What struck me was when you said: "I always seem to come back to this same thing, over and over again.."

That's the reason I'm posting. I had the same thing and, for years, told myself (and had other people tell me) that it was simply a faith issue.

It could be. Again, I don't know you. But it might also be something chemical, that has nothing to do with faith. The majority of my experiences, which were exactly like what you mention, just went away.

Not that I don't get anxious anymore, but I don't have those kinds of experiences anymore. What took me a long time to seek treatment was feeling like I would be compromising my faith by doing so.

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screen name

Welcome

If I may... I want to say thank you for your insight and great post.
Just so you have an answer now rather then wait for Becky to get back again and reply, I will answer for her.

Yes she does look at both areas and is doing what needs be done.
She is a smart lady.
You are very correct... it can be more then a faith issue and we should look at all areas of understanding. Becky is doing that.

[screen_name]

Very glad to hear it, best. Thanks for letting me know. Hang in there, Becky....

[angelgirl]

Thanks so much for your wonderful caring replies. Right now I am reading, and re-reading them. I need to absorb them, and think them through,,.

Thank you all so much,, I appreciate each and every one of you very, very much..

Prayers,
Becky

[rayofsunshine]

You're in my prayers, Becky.
(((HUGS)))

[Grasshopper]

and in my prayers too.