Need to post this tonight..... Thanks...

[angelgirl]

Hi there everyone..

Just really needed to post tonight. I'm just feeling stressed, and washed out tonight, and needed a safe place to talk about it. I know this is just that place. I do feel safe here.

Things have been pretty stressful in my life lately, and I haven't been around much at all lately, and I am sorry for that. I won't make a big list of excuses.
I do attend my weekly Celebrate Recovery Meeting, and I do enjoy that very much I have learned, and do continue to learn alot.

I really would like to ask for prayer for my daughter, as well as my family.
Things have been really tough lately with one of my daughters, and I feel completely stressed over it, like I don't know how much more I can take at moments. I know that is selfish. I do feel guilty about that, but it is how I feel.

Last month, my oldest daughter got up in the middle of the night one night, and she was ro9lling around in her bed, saying her wrist hurt, and this went on again the next night, but the next night her wrist was swollen and it had a BIG red lump on it. She was in such severe pain, and my oldest daughter does NOT complain at all, she has to really be in terrible pain before she complains. She has ALWAYS been like that, she's like my husband, they are made of steel, I always thought. Because they are so tough, and just don't complain, well she was in agony and cried, and was up all night and by morni8ng that 2nd night, the lump was gone, but the pain wasn't. I took her in to the doctor, 2 nights of little sleep, and she didn't go to school that day, I said enough. To make this long story short, life has turned upside down sinc then with her. It seems that 5 out of 7 days have been just terrible for her. Her symptoms change continuiously, something different, and really strange is going on with her every couple of days. She has gone from joint pain, to severe swelling, to SEVERE HIVES everywhere, and I mean everywhere. The night before last, she was completely covered in hives, and her feet were so swollen, that she had an extremely difficult time walking from the couch (which she had spent all evening on) to her bed....

They have tested her for Lyme's disease, that's what they were pretty sure she had, but no, that wasn't it. They have checked for a few things,. She is seeing a Rheumatologist.. They took a chest X-Ray and 6 tubes of blood from her today, (yesterday) at the hospital, they are running a bunch more tests. Now they think she may have Lupus. But they are also checking for Leukemia,
something with the thyroid, although not just regular thyroid problems,
strep, and I am not even sure what else. But it seems the doctor really thinks she has Lupus, that is what he talked the most about. It's good though that they are thorough, and check everything.

So,,,, you see, it is just hard to watch your child suffer this way.. It's draining. She is really good, and I know she tries not to complain, I don't know why, she has every right those hives are terrible, especially on her toes,a nd fingers, but I know she is trying not to.

Well thanks for letting me unload.. I really needed to.. I feel better. That's great, because I am going to bed. I am going to pray, that will help even more.. I pray it will...

Thanks..
I love you all,,,
Blessings,
Becky

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Becky

You are not selfish, you are a concerned loving mom. You are doing your job.

Yes Prayers for her and prayers for you continue also.
The Lord has touched and will continue to touch your whole family through you.

[cmc]

Becky,
I'm so glad you shared what's going on and I will be praying for you and your family. I've seen my kids have some very serious illnesses and right now my husband is having a health crisis.... I can't know exactly how you're feelilng but I'm pretty close to being there myself.
Please let us know how you are doing. It's always great to hear from you. I'm just sorry it's so difficult for you all right now.
hugs,
cmc

[toad]

Thanks for sharing, we will believe and agree with you that God will take care of this problem. "My God shall supply all your needs through His riches in glory by Christ Jesus." (Phil 4:19) ................. "A" double "L" means all. Lord, right now we have a need, a need for healing. We come together in agreement as we read this and stand upon your promise. We receive and give you thanks O Lord, in the Name above all names, your Son Jesus, we ask......Amen

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Amen

[cmc]

Thy will be done, Amen!

[Grasshopper]

Amen

[sugarssweetpea]

Becky,
How is your daughter. Any test results in yet. I do not think you are being selfish either. It is called being a loving mom. If you did not feel the way you are feeling, I would consider you to be selfish. Much prayers & much love to you.

[rayofsunshine]

Originally Posted by toad

Lord, right now we have a need, a need for healing. We come together in agreement as we read this and stand upon your promise. We receive and give you thanks O Lord, in the Name above all names, your Son Jesus, we ask......Amen

Amen.

(((HUGS))) Becky.

[Alera]

Becky praying for you and your daughter. I know how draining these health crisis can be, having been on both sides. {{{tons of hugs}}}

[angelgirl]

Hi there,,

Thanks so much for all of your kind words, and THANKS so much Toad for the prayer, and all of you for your prayers. I know this is in Gods has, and has been all the time. At times when she felt so sick, it was really hard not to feel helpless, and I did struggle in my own head at times. I know he is here with us.

She has been feeling much better all weekend. It has been a real nice weekend for her. She was able to sleep with her sister and brother and a friends house... So that was really nice. :O)

Today was a bit tougher for her. She had some hives, although they did not itch much at all, so that was good, and that compared to head to toe hives that were horribly itchy, this is good. She also had a bit of a swollen foot, and was having some pain tonight. But at least it only hurt when she walked, and not all the time, so things are still better. We can only continue to pray that things continue to get better yet.

Her tests were very confusing. They almost all came back negative. All except the Thyroid antiboidies test. Which was a bit confusing, because her Thyriod test came back good. But the doctor did say that eventually her Thyroid would go bad.. But what is also weird is that, she just stopped her Thyroid meds this last year, she had a bad Thyroid, but her numbers came back good for a coupel checks without meds, so she went off the Thyroid meds, and her Thyroid is good. So,,, I don't know.. This is now a wait and see game. I guess there is something called a Thyroid auto immune disease, and he did mention that. But we will see. I don't think this explains her swelling, and painful joints though..

Thanks again.. We do appreciate your prayers.. :O)

PS- I am having oral surgery tomorrow morning, and am a bit on the anxious side.. Please, could you keep me in your prayers.. I really don't like to be put under..

Thanks..
Love to all of you,
Becky

[cmc]

Becky,
I hope you can get some rest and take good care of yourself. The Lord is with you and prayers will continue.



cmc

[angelgirl]

Hi,,

Thanks,, I made it through the oral surgery. Thanks for your prayers..
The worst part ended up being the freezing, I would say. This truly is an issue I have, that I need to put into Gods hands, because I fear doctors so much, that I let my health go to pot, and that I know is silly. I need, and want to trust God. I know he has the plan for my life, I need to let go of my will when it comes to my health, that really has been an issue with me. I don't have the same issue so much with my kids, at least not as bad. But this is something I need to pray about, and work on more. Letting go of our will can surly be hard, and that is silly, because God is in charge anyway, and really I am glad he is.. :o) Thanks so much to him.

I also appreciate the prayers for my daughter, I will keep you updated,, I am not sure this is so simply solved as they thought. But we will see. Thanks.

cmc-- You and your husband will be in my prayers. I do hope things have gotten better for him..

Love ya all,
Thanks and Prayers,
Becky

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Becky

Progress not perfection.

Do you see how far you have come? Three years ago you wouldn't have gone to the dentist in such a timely manner.

So glad that things went as well as they did. It is my turn next week *LOL*

I don't like being knocked out either so on the few times I was told they would, I asked for another way. Still had the work done but it was done with me awake.
Last time I needed to be knocked out, I said a payer and my now being a Christian, I felt a peace knowing that the Lord is in charge and in control.

[rayofsunshine]

Becky,
Continued prayers for your daughter, you, and your family.
When I read about your fear of doctors, I thought about
my Sunday school lesson this past week. We've been studying
about the Miracles Jesus performed while on earth. Healing the blind
man, Walking on water, feeding the 5000. Part of the lesson was
realizing that even though Jesus isn't here to physically perform the
miracles today, God can and does use others to perform miracles,
like doctors.
(((HUGS)))

[gettingbetter]

Thoughts and prayers also.

[angelgirl]

Thanks so much to all of you.. I read and appreciate everything you post to me..

Lots of Love,
Prayers,
Becky