too real dream.....

[Pepsifreek007]

I dreamed that our family was a someone's house close to a road and my daughter knows how to drive so we watched as she was trying out this race car. She took off but was behind another and went too fast and slammed the car up underneath the one in front then spun around and went real fast the opposite direction. Stopped got out of the car and ran back not realizing that she was in the way of the other car coming and she got hit dead center in her stomache. I watched in horror as this unfolded and screamed as she slid under the car and ran into the house to call 911 and almost fainted. But I guess someone had called them and I heard the sirens and I ran outside and everyone had left me. I spent that time moaning and groaning and crying and sobing in the dream for seemed like forever until my husband came back from the hospital and then the cops tried to take him away for homcide or gross negligence. I began to defend my husband and then just woke up crying. I finally realized it was a dream but it was so strong that I prayed about it and begged God for mercy not to take away my children. That was too real.
Then I began to think about the story of Job. How did he do it. I would not been able to handle losing my entire family in one day. I would just crawl in a little ball and die let alone a daughter of mine. : Would anyone of of us be able to?

[Pepsifreek007]

Ok, I just need to get this out of my system. I am awed by the fact that God is in control of all aspects of our lives. We own nothing..everything is for His pleasure. We only borrow and he can take it away anytime He pleases. It's hard to imagine that we are not our own. This body I have is His. I began to think about all this as I was driving back from taking my daughter to school. I began to think about all the family that I lost. God's hand has been on my life all my life. Even before I even knew Him, He was. I am nothing but dust and ashes. I know how Abraham must of felt as he wandered about searching for a place to call home. Blessed be the name of the Lord.