Wild horses

[toad]

“In God’s economy, nothing is wasted. Through failure, we learn a lesson in humility which is probably needed, painful though it is.”
Bill Wilson

O LORD,
You have searched me and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
You perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
You are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely,
O LORD.
Psalm 139:1-4 NIV

Before a word is on my tongue, God knows it completely. I’m busted sometimes even before I speak. My tongue has been known to get me in trouble and I have been working on watching what I say for several years now, but it is still one of the hardest tasks that I have as a Christian, a friend, a family member, and as a person in recovery from addictions. For years my ego and self-will was allowed to run free like a bunch of wild horses on the open plains. No reigns, no fences, no particular direction to head, just following the pleasures of life. My how I thought it was so much fun to run and kick my heals up. With no real direction in my life I ended up in a dry barren area away from the nourishing fertile fields of life. And then the fences and barriers started coming up. I found myself under the authority of those who I had been trying to avoid, cops, lawyers, judges, and the correctional system. Just like in the old western movies when I ran free with my head held high, thinking I was totally in control, I found myself in a boxed canyon with no way out. Years of running freely on self-will, has made it a difficult job in curbing my thoughts and tongue. Today as I work at renewing my mind by spending time in the Word of God, I am constantly reminded (renewing mind) that God knows me beyond and before my thoughts and words. It humbles me to know that God knows before I know what I am going to say. Through the study of the written Word, I am finding that God is able to do for me what I could not do for myself………….JRE

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight,
O LORD, my Rock and my redeemer. (Psalm 19:14)

“I think we delight to praise what we enjoy because the praise not merely expresses but completes the enjoyment. It is not out of compliment that lovers keep on telling one another how beautiful they are; the delight is incomplete till it is expressed.”
C. S. Lewis

[cmc]

thanks toad!!!!
I really appreciate your experience strength and hope!

Our words are a very accurate reflection/indication of our heart.

I’m busted sometimes even before I speak.

A very wise woman once told me that you can always tell what people really care about by really 'listening' to what they choose to say. For me, I will bring up the Lord, my husband and family during most conversations. Whatever interests me most is usually what I will talk about. Thoughts become words and words become actions.

thinking I was totally in control, I found myself in a boxed canyon with no way out.

I am also thankful that the Lord allows us to fail in those endeavors or lifestyles that He is steering us away from!! His love is amazing!!!!

Oh, and btw toad- it is more than evident where your heart and mind are these days!!! You are keeping close to the Lord and sharing His goodness with others!!!

[best]

It humbles me to know that God knows before I know what I am going to say.

And still He lets me say it.
Lessons get learned and I grow. I grow because He loves me enough to let me make mistakes. God could move my lips so I will say what He would like but that would make me a robot. God is love and when we fill with His love, we can grow and be more like Him daily. To become more like Him, my heart and words will follow.

Jesus,
Continue to guide me and help me grow and become more like you.