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hopealwayz · 10-12-2005, 03:17 PM

This evening, I am truly missing the guy that I had to let go. I am so weak because I called his cell phone 2 times and let it ring once and then hung up. I really miss him and I want to talk to him. But, I already told him that I had to let him go so I cannot call him. I wish I could talk to him....I miss our talks.

I was pretty beaten up today and usually he would have called to check in on me and he would make sure that I was ok. But, today he didn't call. It really hurt me because in my heart I was hoping that he would call to see if I was alright but it just kind of settled in that if he started calling me , then that would not be letting go. I miss him sooooo much! I have to make it through the night without calling him and I hope he is ok.

Chance · 10-12-2005, 03:24 PM

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Originally Posted by AngelHugs

. I wish I could talk to him....I miss our talks.
It really hurt me because in my heart I was hoping that he would call to see if I was alright . I miss him sooooo much! I have to make it through the night without calling him and I hope he is ok.

OMG Angel how I can relate to almost everything that you said. I miss my friend also from SR the one I went to see. But I guess that if it was truely meant to be that she would be worried about me or atleast email me or call. Maybe I just ruined our relationship the way that I acted, but OMG do I ever miss our talks you just made me cry. I do so much want to be with her yet I am sure that it is not the right time. Maybe someday we will talk again, I donno but I really do miss our 8 to 12 hours talks a day LOL>

Love Vic

PS It will be OK just have faith

hopealwayz · 10-12-2005, 03:26 PM

Vic,
Never ever lose faith. Time does wonders for so many things. Keep the hope alive and if you really want it and believe, then don't give up on it.

hopealwayz · 10-12-2005, 03:36 PM

Now I am kicking myself. I gave in and called him. He was talking to someone in the background and I think it was the girl that he is seeing. I wish I had not have called him. It hurts that he is with her but as long as he is happy then I am happy for him. I just wish that I had never dialed those numbers and then I would not have known that they were together tonight.
Being in love can really hurt.

Chance · 10-12-2005, 03:51 PM

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Originally Posted by AngelHugs

Being in love can really hurt.

Yeah I agree with that too Angel hon but not only that I think alot of it also is that when the love we have is not mutual by the other partie that is when it really hurts most. I am sending thoughts and prayers your way, hang in there hun and remember we don't have to use or drink over this OK>>>>>

Love Vic

FaeryQueen · 10-12-2005, 04:12 PM

Angel,
Try journaling, posting, or praying next time the urge to call him comes on. Don't beat yourself up because you called him....you are only human!

hopealwayz · 10-12-2005, 04:14 PM

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Originally Posted by FaeryQueen

Angel,
Try journaling, posting, or praying next time the urge to call him comes on. Don't beat yourself up because you called him....you are only human!

Thanks for the tips. I will try those the next time I get that urge to dial him up.
Maybe not calling him will get a little easier in time.

FaeryQueen · 10-12-2005, 04:16 PM

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Thanks for the tips. I will try those the next time I get that urge to dial him up.
Maybe not calling him will get a little easier in time.

It will definitely get easier!! You may even look back one day and say "What the hell was I thinking?!!!!"

hopealwayz · 10-12-2005, 04:17 PM

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Originally Posted by FaeryQueen

It will definitely get easier!! You may even look back one day and say "What the hell was I thinking?!!!!"

LOL, I hope so!!!!!!!!!

hopealwayz · 10-12-2005, 04:18 PM

I hope it is sooner than I think!

Savana 54 · 10-12-2005, 04:33 PM

Hi Angelhugs,
I'm usually over in the F & F section. But I did notice your post, and it reminded me a lot of my exabf. I haven't talked to him in over two weeks, but sometimes I want to call him, as I still love him and at times miss the sober person he used to be.

I don't know the story behind your situation, but if you're not trying to have contact with him for reasons such as mine, it does get easier. I know when I do give in and become weak, I call him. Afterwards I feel ten times worse off and like you, wonder why in the hell I called him. Progress not perfection

Hugs,
Savana

pmaslan · 10-13-2005, 10:40 AM

I am here to say it does get easier.....I used to feel horrible after I got off the phone with him. He told me so many lies and said so many things to keep me hooked and never followed through. After awhile you begin to realize that life IS more than this. One day you will wake up and not even think about him and as the days pass you will remember less about him. Trust me, keep strong, don't call and you too will get past this.....(((AngelHugs)))

**BigSis** · 10-13-2005, 11:09 AM

Patty - I was just going to post "Play the tape all the way through" when I read your last post.

I tend to remember the 'good stuff' and repress the bad. With everyone, but especially with men.

Forcing myself to remember the bad reminds me WHY I made the decisions I did.

I wish you a better rest of the day...

10-12-2005, 03:17 PM	#1 (permalink)
hopealwayz Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: somewhere Posts: 3,514	I miss him This evening, I am truly missing the guy that I had to let go. I am so weak because I called his cell phone 2 times and let it ring once and then hung up. I really miss him and I want to talk to him. But, I already told him that I had to let him go so I cannot call him. I wish I could talk to him....I miss our talks. I was pretty beaten up today and usually he would have called to check in on me and he would make sure that I was ok. But, today he didn't call. It really hurt me because in my heart I was hoping that he would call to see if I was alright but it just kind of settled in that if he started calling me , then that would not be letting go. I miss him sooooo much! I have to make it through the night without calling him and I hope he is ok. __________________

10-12-2005, 03:26 PM	#3 (permalink)
hopealwayz Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: somewhere Posts: 3,514	Vic, Never ever lose faith. Time does wonders for so many things. Keep the hope alive and if you really want it and believe, then don't give up on it. __________________

10-12-2005, 03:36 PM	#4 (permalink)
hopealwayz Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: somewhere Posts: 3,514	Now I am kicking myself. I gave in and called him. He was talking to someone in the background and I think it was the girl that he is seeing. I wish I had not have called him. It hurts that he is with her but as long as he is happy then I am happy for him. I just wish that I had never dialed those numbers and then I would not have known that they were together tonight. Being in love can really hurt. __________________

10-12-2005, 04:12 PM	#6 (permalink)
FaeryQueen Dreamlike...Now Join Date: May 2005 Location: Texas Posts: 707	Angel, Try journaling, posting, or praying next time the urge to call him comes on. Don't beat yourself up because you called him....you are only human! __________________ "I don't do drugs. I am drugs." Dali

10-12-2005, 04:18 PM	#10 (permalink)
hopealwayz Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: somewhere Posts: 3,514	I hope it is sooner than I think! __________________

10-12-2005, 04:33 PM	#11 (permalink)
Savana 54 too much on my plate!! Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: not kissing frogs anymore Posts: 646	Hi Angelhugs, I'm usually over in the F & F section. But I did notice your post, and it reminded me a lot of my exabf. I haven't talked to him in over two weeks, but sometimes I want to call him, as I still love him and at times miss the sober person he used to be. I don't know the story behind your situation, but if you're not trying to have contact with him for reasons such as mine, it does get easier. I know when I do give in and become weak, I call him. Afterwards I feel ten times worse off and like you, wonder why in the hell I called him. Progress not perfection Hugs, Savana __________________ There's no way around the pain, you just have to walk through it...

10-13-2005, 10:40 AM	#12 (permalink)
pmaslan Member Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: Chicago, IL Posts: 2,332	I am here to say it does get easier.....I used to feel horrible after I got off the phone with him. He told me so many lies and said so many things to keep me hooked and never followed through. After awhile you begin to realize that life IS more than this. One day you will wake up and not even think about him and as the days pass you will remember less about him. Trust me, keep strong, don't call and you too will get past this.....(((AngelHugs))) __________________ Patty you either make dust...or eat dust. H. Jackson Brown Jr.

10-13-2005, 11:09 AM	#13 (permalink)
BigSis On a tear Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Volcano Country! Posts: 3,157	Patty - I was just going to post "Play the tape all the way through" when I read your last post. I tend to remember the 'good stuff' and repress the bad. With everyone, but especially with men. Forcing myself to remember the bad reminds me WHY I made the decisions I did. I wish you a better rest of the day... __________________ No matter how spoiled the past may be, our future is spotless.... BigSis

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