Penny for your thoughts part 67

[WENDYLOST101]

No Amy you didn't offend me.

Lies, I hate to see it end too.

[Jewelz]

I also would hate to see this thread over.. why because at times when I felt that I had no where to go this is where I felt safe.. to share.

Now it seems maybe it should be the end... for me I am undecided.. about that but because I dont want to see it over but then we cant beat a dead horse either.

Lately though I feel like so many members feel hurt here and we shouldnt feel that way... not the person whose giving their advice, personal experiences, or opinions.... and not the person on the recieving end either. I think many of the members take whats said here more personally than they would on another thread just because we do share a bond with one another. It really does make me sad but its out of my hands. We already lost a few members.... members that I respected what they had to say even if I didnt agree with everything that was said.

I want you all to know that I care for each of you... and you ALL have a piece of my heart within side of me.

Hopefully this thread will continue some what.. I guess time will see but I feel like we lost some flavors here... some that made this unique and special.

My thoughts only and please dont take offense..

Jewelz

[cookconfay]

Here's my TWO pennies worth....

I was taught to share experience, strength and hope. I'm sure I've added my opinion to the mix more than once. I have really paid attention and tried to NOT "talk down to" anyone or tell them what to do. Only shared what happened in MY life and how I did or did not handle it. Suggestions that were given to me etc.

If I had no experience in dealing with certain matters, I was sure to include that in my post as well.

My life will go on without SR, it was going on before and it can go on now. I hate that I have grown so close to some of you and now it feels as if the tension caused here by a few remarks could be cut with a knife.

I wish the best for all of you. I for one am still going on the trip, and do still have contact with some of you.

I will be here for anyone who calls upon me.

[WENDYLOST101]

Me three

[ajangels2]

I too am sad if this thread ends. You all have given me such strength and support when I had none.

Sometimes people move in and out of places and people's lives, hopefully that would not be the case here. Some might choose to move on but other's may want to stay. Hope the thread can continue at least somewhat. I definitely intend to keep in touch with you all.

Love and Hugs,
Shaun

[finallyout]

Happy Friday!! Well schools out here, its officially Summer! anyone know of a good loony bin for me - cuz an entire summer with four kids is gonna put me there! LOL My oldest daughter had her graduation from 5th grade and i cried of course, it was beautiful, at the end they did a slide show collage of the last few years and just seeing how much all the kids have changed made every parent cry. now its on to the middle school and all the drama, moodiness that comes with that!! i remember someone telling me that it gets easier when the kids get older but i'm not sure about that now.

jewelz - how exciting for your daughter! i'm guessing Ally's time is coming any day now too. shes ready, but i'm not! btw, let me know when you want to get together, i'm dying for a girls night out

rita, wendy, aj, kim, connie, cindi, anvil and everyone else - hope you all have a great weekend planned!

Happy Birthday Rita!

[finallyout]

oops, i hit the reply button to soon! had an interesting conversation with ah this week. we were sitting watching tv and he blurted out that he thinks that i'm not happy with my life. i had to stop and really think that thru before answering. but basically my answer was, yes, i am happy, i have my beautiful kids, my school work, and some really great friends and family. sure i wish i could change my financial situation and our living situation, but doesn't everyone wish for more or better of something? i'm happy with my life choices and i didn't even realize that until i finally "let go" of his issues, when i realized his issues weren't mine and that no matter how bad he F8cked up, i was still ok, i realized that i am happy. then i clued him in on the fact that he was just projecting and really hes the one thats not happy, which he agreed, hes not happy with the fact that hes hasn't gotten as far in life as most people his age. well, of course i was more than happy to point out the various ways in which his using has prevented him from being where he wants to be in life, and after i made my case, which i did calmly, he had NOTHING to say, which never happens, he was speechless cuz i was right and he knew it! anyway, i was just proud of myself for finally realizing that I am happy and no matter what he does it doesn't have to affect how i feel. i think i figured out the whole letting go thing, finally, only 13 years into this whole addiction nightmare! LOL ok, i'm done rambling.

[Jewelz]

It's saturday morning mike is watching sponge bob and my daughter is watching tv.. I am bored out of my mind.

I am sitting here wondering should I post... or is this thread over. ... dont know.

I hope all is well with everyone on the pennys thread. Thinking of you

[Jewelz]

Finally, I gotta figure out a day and then I will let you know. I would love to hang out with you!!

[finallyout]

ok, so i'm sorta confused, who decided this thread was over?? i read a few pages and saw someone mentioning maybe time to move on or whatever, but does that mean everyone? i know i have a hard time finding time during the week anymore to post, but i try to. this thread has meant a lot to me over the last year, i'm really not sure how i would've managed without it and all of you!

anyway, its so hot out again today, and i'm here at work. Ally has her dance recital this evening, shes not even really ready for it, didn't practice enuf this year, oh well, i'm sure it will be fine. ah is putting new brakes on my van right now, its a good thing hes been clean for almost a month! LOL

[liesagain]

hello

I hope everyones having a good weekend...................as for the thread being over, my opinion is its ONLY over if we ALL stop posting here.......and since Jewelzs and Finally posted then I guess its not over............

really others may have made decisions to stop posting and each of us has to do whats right for us..............but for me this is a good place, a place where i come and check in on my penny friends and a place where i come when I'm happy or sad ............
heck I sometimes come here and just talk/type to myself to get out some issues or concerns----and it works for me...............

so those that arent ready to leave stick around and maybe others will return or maybe new friends will join in.................

[cookconfay]

I'm here occasionally. I have so much going on today.....

Glad you all are doing alright. Sorry you're so bored Jewelz

Good to hear from you Finally....and Lies......

Hugs.....................

[liveweyerd]

I do not plan to leave this thread. It is too important to me. Even if I am not here everyday, when I do post I read everything posted while I was away from the puter to hear everyone.

I feel like I have real friends here.

[Jewelz]

So I believe that settles it..... we are still ON!!!!

Now for the friends that happened to leave.... all of you I hope one day you make your way back here.

Well we all went to central park today and had great time. I'ma gonna try to relax some... hopefully some pics will be up on myspace.

[liveweyerd]

I am in limbo today. Is SIL and BIL bringing hubs inheritance furniture or not?
There was a terrible argument earlier in the week, she loathes me and I sent her emails trying to communicate and then an overnight saying it was urgent she calls and lets us know. No response.

My sister is not talking to me either.

So, I am glad everyone is not going away here too!

[Impurrfect]

I finally got the internet back on for my laptop! Dad had to get a new router, and I got it installed this morning, because I was SICK of having to use his old and slow computer!

Work was fun! The girl who cussed me out, is doing great and I'm glad she wasn't fired. She, her bf, and I work together on weekends and are a good team. She was running around, singing the song from "little mermaid" and we were all laughing because singing is NOT one of her talents Tips weren't great, but it's okay when we have fun.

My f2f friends, who have been going through a few crises, are working through their stuff. I didn't have to "fix" anything, just give moral support. Oh, but I do get to help Desirae move into her new place on our days off this week, but I'm glad she's moving out of her bf's apt, so it's okay.

Happy Sunday, everyone!

[cookconfay]

Can't believe it but I am sick AGAIN!! DAMN, pi$$es me off.

Amy you sound really good.....Live glad you are around again too.

Hope everyone has a delightful day, bet I spend mine in the waiting room at the Urgent Care. DAMN again!!!

[Impurrfect]

(((Connie))) - hope you feel better, soon!

[liesagain]

Amy, glad to hear things with your coworker have worked out and that your comuters up and running

Connie, sorry your sick hope your feel bettr soon

Live, stinks when theres so much drama hang in there .....I'm always glad to see you here

Jewelz have a great day and enjoy every good moment

everyone else...............hope your all having a great weekend

[finallyout]

Connie - hope you feel better soon - rest up!

Live - sorry for the drama - hang in there

lies - good to hear from you!

so had my daughters dance recital last night, can you believe it wasn't over till 11pm!!! i was so exhausted, my poor 8yr old son barely had his eyes open as we left. so the good news here is that my van has all new brakes now thanks to ah, hopefully it will pass inspection without needing too much - keep your fingers crossed for me! and looks like we finally have enuf $ to get ah's truck a new engine so he can be back to work full time, which is good cuz god knows those bill collectors just don't give up LOL! this week is the start of soccer for the kids, spring (actually summer) cleaning for me and getting ready for our vacation. i think maybe this summer is actually gonna fly by, which is just fine with me!

[cookconfay]

Well got the news about a hour ago that my best friend from high school, her mom passed away today. They were really prepared I think, she fought cancer, but not very long. A really aggressive form and hospice had been there for about 2 weeks. Sad, she was like a 2nd mom to me in school!

That's 2 good friends' moms within a week. WOW. my other friend's mom, 63 drank her self to death! DAMN

My mom is in a bad place, she finally understands I guess daddy has a girlfriend and so has gotten upset and crying over it. They've been divorced for 35 years. Sad, she's in a horrible mental state. She can't communicate hardly at all with us. Can't change that or that daddy has found someone and is very happy. Sigh.....counselor says.....we aren't responsible for everyone....my oldest sister and I. I always said I didn't want to end up like my mom......would never be an alcoholic like my mom....ok so heroin was my drug of choice.....she sobered up way before I did......She'll have 24 yrs January 1, 2009. I also said I never wanted to end up overweight and alone like her. Here I am, overweight....pushing 200 lbs....DAMN.....and alone except for little one, which is fine with me. Aint' willing to put up with anyone's sh!t. She never dealt with the pain, anger & misery over daddy though......damn.

Ok, enough of my gut spilling for the day/weekend/week......night all.

[liveweyerd]

As for my in-laws and my sis, shame on them. IIt's on their conscience.

We got alot done re-organizing and re-arranging for the furniture anyway.

Hope you feel better, Connie!

Good to see everyone here!