Penny for your thoughts part 67

[Lovestoomuch]

Well I'm not only cussing......I'm smoking! Ugh....the worst part??? I'm a closet smoker now. Everyone thinks I quit. My mother would hit the roof!! So....I'm living a lie among not having a job and a head case for a boyfriend LOL I don't think he's a head case really. He's been hurt a lot and is constantly on guard. But it's pissing me off.

[cookconfay]

Well now you know it's not worth it to lie and you're only hurting yourself! And....about the smoking, Lord knows how many times I tried to quit only to start up again.....this time though off of 'em since September!!! YEAH!!

About the guy who's been hurt....awwwww like who hasn't been? He better get his sh!t together, we can't have no psycho whack jobs messin with our Loves!!!

[ajangels2]

((((Loves)))) so sorry about all the troubles going on right now. I agree with Connie though thank goodness you were'nt working when the buildings went up in flames. Strangely coincindental though isn't it? Everything will work itself out even the issue with the guy. Hang in there girl.

[Lovestoomuch]

Thanks gals. You guys are the bestest! I'm trying really hard to keep my head up. It's just been really hard with everything happening so close together. Just when you think life is just great, the bottom is ripped out from underneath you in a seemingly planned out way as if to let you know you're still not in control of anything.

[petey999]

i am new here posting and i often ponder the question am i in recovery or am i recovered .let me state i never try to kidd myself that i could use drugs again but the label recovery doesnt sit well with me .i am a firm believer in what works for you but i personally believe in choice and drugs are your choice to take or not i amnt a 12steper i am a product of a theraputic community check out coolmine tc ireland if you would like to see what programme worked for me on google i would love to hear from people who done different programmes

[cookconfay]

me...I'm recovering. Heroin was my drug of choice, been in & out of the program. I do AA meetings and work the 12 steps. Got a sponsor and I use her. That's how it works for me. I'll have 11 yrs clean & sober next month!!!

[petey999]

im 3 years heroin coke and methadone addict i feel not letting things build up in me is my relapse prevention .talking to other addicts who are not using gives me strengh

[petey999]

i am 3 years clean 17 years using,

[liesagain]

welcome petey..............

Loves good to see ya sorry about the fires and the head games.............hope things look up for you soon. Hows your older daughter holding up? And the grandbaby?

Cinder...............hum either I have the wrong phone number or your blowing me off...............hope your doing okay

Everyone else..............hows it going?

Well, with me things are good. I may be back around more I'll find out Thursday but it seems that evryone at work whos working in other departments than the one they were hired for will be returning to original departments..........which means I may be back on nights..............good for me I like it SOOOOOO much better but I think my family prefers the day shifts.........oh well its up to the boss I guess

not much else happening here thank goodness............hope everyones good take care talk to you soon.

[liesagain]

connie...............wanted to tell you my AH is now going to AA meetings he has a sponsor and is using him and hes really doing much better.................says he gets so much more from AA rather than NA..........

[cookconfay]

Way to go Petey.....welcome!

[cookconfay]

Me too Lies....especially here in my area....it's just not that strong and they are all a bunch of Nazis......

[liesagain]

congrats petey

[liesagain]

well there are tons of NA meetings here but like my husband said theres someone every meeting picking up a white chip again............and so many talk the talk and dont walk the walk.....plus the meetings are more gripe sessions than help or support.................AA seems different alot of people with alot of time and very spiritual

[cookconfay]

Yep, here at NA there aren't many with any substantial amount of clean time. Most people with much time end up just going to AA anyways.................and I totally support that. I mean after all......that's where it ALL began....from Bill & Bob a LONG DAMN time ago....they must've done something that worked huh?

[cinderellawkids]

I pmed you Lies.

I agree with the AA vs NA thing too. Course my AH has his own gonna drink only plan and not so much...
Whatever to each his own. Im off to lay on a heating pad. Have a good one everyone

[petey999]

i go to a support group here in dublin,its not 12 step just addicts talking and relating and giving eachother feedback and affrimations if needed do you have that in america

[cookconfay]

I don't know Petey....for me I've only done the 12 step stuff.....

[Impurrfect]

Welcome Petey! Congrats on the clean time!

(((Kris))) I was just thinking about you a couple of days ago...glad you checked in. That really sucks about 2 places burning down. Sounds like a lot of chaos going on, but it also sounds like my life...can't have just ONE catastrophe, now can we?

((Lies)) - glad you checked in and he's doing better. When I went to meetings, I did AA, too.

((Connie)) - hope you get an answer from the scan soon and they can work on getting the infections CURED!

((Cindi)) - hope houdini-the-squirrel is okay. Sounds like he's a tough little one, though.

((Hugs)) to anyone I missed.

Work was busy again, but now I've got 2 nights off. Going to pay some bills...FIRST is my car insurance (won't forget THAT one again)..actually going to pay it early!

[WENDYLOST101]

Morning All.

Kris, sorry I wasn't around much yesterday. After you posted I had to go work in the shop, so I couldnt reply. I dont even know what to say about the cussing thing. I try to be a christian and do what my HP wants me to do, but sometimes the words slip out before I can help it. I just have to remember to ask for forgiveness. The smoking thing, well, I know I always felt better if my parents knew. I didn't want my mother to be disappointed in me, but boy it lifted a weight off of my shoulders. The guy playing head games, well, in my opinion, that is the last thing you need. You say he has been hurt, well, I think if anybody knows how that feels, it's you. You have been through the wringer with men, and you dont deserve to have to put up with that kind of crap, even if he doesnt realize he is doing it. Maybe talk to him about it and see how it goes from there. If he gives you any crap about it or doesnt stop, drop im like it's hot. You are a beautiful intelligent funny witty woman and there are tons of guys out there that would die to have you! I love ya!

Connie, I hope you are feeling okay.

AJ, hope things are going okay. Still hangin in there?

Cinder, hope you get that pool cleaned out soon.

Lies, I am so glad to hear that things are going well for you.

Everyone else I hope you are doing well.

Love you all!

[WENDYLOST101]

Amy, I am glad that work has picked up. Even though its not always great at least you have more money. I have been really worried about money lately, so I guess I shouldnt complain about having to work Thursday. See we work 4 10's but dont get Thursday off, which doesnt seem right to me especially considering the boss wont even be in town, but.... at least its extra money.

[Japic05]

Honey - I'm home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh good gravy have I missed my Pennies family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was a wonderful vacation - great time spent with my Mom, my niece and granddaughter, Lexi - The time with my dad was priceless. The reunion went well also - touched base with a few cousins and will try to keep in contact with them.

On the last day traveling home, got a call from a very good friend of mine, his mother-in-law passed away. So as soon as I got home Monday, I baked some brownies & cookies - brought them to the funeral home yesterday for noon, then hubby & i went back last nite. my friend's partner and hubby are very, very close and it has been a long illness for his mother. Our friends are both emotionally & physically exhausted, please keep them in your thoughts & prayers (E & J). I know they will appreciate it.

So, I did not have internet access on the trip, and haven't even unpacked my laptop - so I'm so way behind in my emails & on SR - I did keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers.

in the next few days, I'll try to catch up and respond -

Praying each of you have a blessed day and please know that this ReeRee is very grateful to be home.

Love ya,
Rita

[Impurrfect]

Wendy - thanks, I'm glad work has picked up, too, but darn it if I don't feel my age in my back and legs after carrying trays of food all night!

Rita - so good to see you back. Prayers to E&J and you, too.