Penny for your Thoughts, part 65

[anvilhead]

Once Again We start another journal of laughs and lyrics, tears and truth, and whatever else you want to share!

Whatever our differences, we have found a common bond of friendship, kindred spirits and unconditional love.


We wanted to share a special poem, we'd hang it on the door.

A Special Bond
by Rae Scales

Even though we have never met,
I feel a bond between us.
A bond that should have taken years to build,
Yet was built in a month or two.
A bond that lifelong friends should have,
Although most never do.
A bond that I am glad to share with you...
My Friend and Confidant.

You are not here in body and soul,
But as a lighted rectangle.
You come to me every day as
A message on my screen,
A message that I can rely on
To cheer me up and make my day.
Through a keyboard we share
Our ups and downs.

I have opened my inner self to you,
And you have to me as well.
We have traded secrets and laughs,
As well as sorrows and pain.
I have never met you, but feel as if
I have known you most of my life.
To most this might sound silly,
But I assure them, it is not.

[Japic05]

anvil - thanks for starting the new thread!!!!!!

aj- hope AH goes to couseling session - if it doesn't help him - at least it would give you a few hrs of peace with just you & the boys!
BTW - how is little Kaleb - growing & moving around like crazy??? Please tell him Aunt ReeRee says "hello, little precious angel"

went to the courthouse- looking up conveyance records - well the computer also has criminal records - NOT a good thing for me - searched Ash's name - looks like her next court date is 06-19 - hmm that's my birthday.

But you know it's really NOT about me - It's just a day on a judge's docket - The world did not single out my birthday to pick on me - it is just the luck of the draw. It is just a day.

[kj0975]

What a day its been here at work. My boss has been working at the other location for a few weeks now. We have a guy who works here and he kinda has little man syndrome to put it nicely. Well he asked me to do something for him this morning which I did and I guess he didnt like the way I did it. (same way always done). Drove to the other location and threw me under the bus. So the owner/boss calls me screaming at me. I said why didnt he just say something to ME, right? So we got into a screaming match and just ended up hanging up on each other.

So about a half hour later "little" man shows up in my office and I just said if I didnt do it right why didnt you say something to me? He proceeds to start screaming at me and spitting in my face while hes screaming YUCK. Finally I ended up screaming get the F outta my office. He wouldnt leave then started getting in my face and telling me I need to learn RESPECT!!! WTF. Then the owner calls me to yell at me. I proceeded to tell him I was packing up and leaving if thought any of that behavior was acceptable towards me I wouldnt work for him. I have done what I was told to do bottom line.

I WILL not be disrespected or talked to like that. My boss talked me out of leaving BUT I have to say I am questioning it. I guess I will let it roll but I will damned to have someone spitting in my face preaching to me about respect.

[cookconfay]

Oh Kim I do NOT do well in those types of situations! I am sooooooooo very grateful to be working where I am at now....none of that goes on here. We all get along so nicely! Sorry to say this but I think it's cuz we're all "older", usually it was the younger ones at my previous jobs that would get "catty".

And....Rita....June 19th huh? I'm June 10th, wow aren't Gemini's wonderful, yes we are aren't we, why yes we are....all of us! :rof

[kj0975]

He is old LOL. He is just wound tight and one of those people who expect you to drop what your doing cause he wants something. Uh NO!!!! Hey I'm june 9th

[cookconfay]

Wow between you, Rita & me....there's what....6 of us!!!!!!!!! Somebody stop us..........

[anvilhead]

did you mention the mafiosa???? i woulda just walked.....i'm too old for that kind of crap, and nobody yells at me, especially not at work. uh uh. years ago here at the hutch i was trying to train my replacement for controller's assistant and the exec sec'y with whom i did not get along got in my face about some damn thing WHILE i'm in the midst of training the NEW person, and i just grabbed my backpack and said to my boss - this is bullsh!t, and until you fix this i won't be back........and i walked out the door. if i recall, that officially wrapped up the training sessions and i did NOT go back.............

ok, so if the DAY goes slower does that i mean i don't AGE as quickly???

heard from renee, things are looking better in her world - landlord approved the puppy and her dingaling is less angry, but sure sounds like hothead.....there's this kinda odd twisted resemblance to her dad at that age.......but she's ok, and that's what matters......

11:43. lunch box empty. but hey, my boss left early, and i was planning on leaving early anyway, for the dr appt, i might leave a bit earliER and dash home first.....maybe not, we'll see....

[Japic05]

sweet - more June bdays - right now I have 12 family birthdays in June - adding both of you makes 14!!!!!!!!!

So you think that first cool snap in September some folks were getting B U S Y!!!

ok so I know that's kinda creepy to think about - being that's your parents and some of my girls - but IT IS WHAT IT IS!!

Kim - you do not have to be spoken to in such a manner - Tell them the mafioso said SO.
they are welcome to ask you to do things another way, you are open to trying different methods in your job, but yelling, scream, and spitting are unacceptable behaviors from 2 yr olds, co-workers and bosses.

OR ELSE - Tess & I will be holding a Come to Jesus meetin, serving Knuckle Sandwiches in Fist City!

Thank you very much!

[kj0975]

I'm really just sick of it. I really fought hard not to walk out, then what? If we werent so hard up for cash I would have but with scotts hrs being cut cause of the car strike I figured I would ride it out. I think I will be sick tomorrow though just so they can see what I do. Which lately is sit at SR LOL

[anvilhead]

can i make a completely female gripe for a moment??? my boobs hurt so bad i want to scream! it's the pms symptom of the month, they like double in size and feel like their being rammed with hot pokers.......i know WAY TMI, but i had to get that off my chest............ :rof

[cookconfay]

Oh Anvil....I hear ya, know what makes 'em worse? taking hormones do but also caffeine makes it worse too. I know what you mean, mine hurt too, sometimes I hate to get out of bed, well I ALWAYS hate to get out of bed, but I hate to get up cuz they really hurt then, or right when I take my bra off! You'd think I had me a couple of Dolly Parton Specials goin on here or something!

[anvilhead]

yeah had extra caffeine today too, dagnabit. remember when you stopped breast feeding and how painful that was? feels just like it.....wah. i think i know why we have pms tho....cuz when the period hits and the symptoms subside we're actually kind of grateful!!!!!! ACK

[cookconfay]

well my god, c'mon already...I'm friggin fixin to be 47 for God's sake!

[cookconfay]

And....although I do remember being engorged a few times, I never "quit" breastfeeding...I nursed both of mine until they weaned their selves.

[Japic05]

had a post all typed out - but when I hit the "Post Quick Reply" button it said - internet connect lost, page gone, you are a loser and those people don't want to hear from you

well maybe something like that.

I am ready to have my very own COME TO JESUS meetin - this time I'm bringin the F'in NO NO.

I'M PI$$ED. AH is working on tearing down old house - well it seems that several people are taking LOTS of stuff out of this house.
1- don't trust that he isn't getting paid for this stuff and NOT giving me the money.
2- don't like that people (even if it is his brother) are at my house without my knowledge.
3- don't like being left out of the loop of communication about what is going on at MY f'ing house.
4- Still have large items AH needs to carry out of old house to new house - don't want those items ruined in other people's demolition. (they won't care about my pictures of the girls when they were babies)

5- Most importantly - It's time for my hormone shot & I feel like being a B#tch.

ok - #5 probably is not healthy - but it did feel fun to type it.

[cookconfay]

Well....what the hell are you waitin on Rita? I'd be on them like white on rice or stink on sh!t!!!!! Go get'em girlie

[anvilhead]

i totally sympathize rita.......while i imagine AH has not ILL or EVIL intent, there is no way he could possibly have the same level of concern and love for your belongings nor be trusted to make sure nobody's making off the the silver.....cuz men don't think like that mostly.........hopefully somebody will have left the door open to the old house and moose got loose tho?!

[Japic05]

I'm ok with the stuff going - because it is helping with the demo - but I just believe there needs to be a little more communication.

It's a standard rule at our house - Neither of us allows someone to go to the house without telling the other one. One of the girls can go wash clothes - we just let the other one know -

Seems that "Mr. Look at Me I'm Sober & Getting my Life Back Together" decided that wasn't important any more.

How about a "H#ll to the No" for me.

My knee jerk reaction was "F U and the camel you rode in on" and get F out of MY house.

You haven't given me enough money for it to qualify as YOUR house yet, big boy!

Let's do the alphabet song - A B C your way outta here.

You asked for 1 more week - that would be next week fella.

He had called earlier today to ask me to go to supper at some of his AA friends' house - was pretty sure I didn't want to do that - I know for sure I don't want to do that NOW.

Ain't ready to play Mr. & Mrs. "Recovery" for his AA crew anymore - Been there, done that - sold the t-shirt at the garage sale.

bottom line is there is still NO trust between he and I.

and I don't imagine that it will come back any time soon.

I know all these things that I will discuss with him may not change any of the outcome of the old house demolition - but at least my thoughts & feelings will be expressed and he will hear the words that I am not interested in pretending everything is great between he & I.

ok - off for the day - breathe in, breathe out -

until tomorrow my trusted friends,
Rita

[Japic05]

Originally Posted by anvilhead

.hopefully somebody will have left the door open to the old house and moose got loose tho?!

damn dog probably stays right on the old front porch for them!!!

shoot, I even (against my better judgment) bought Moose some dog bones a couple of weeks ago!! - see - i'm weak!!

thanks for the support!!

[anvilhead]

ok, so some good news....doc doesn't see any immediate issues...my BP was fine (130/80), pulse fine, lungs fine.....says i have a slight murmur in my heartbeat but nothing at all to be concerned about....i'm scheduled in tomorrow am for fasting blood work so we can check lipids and cholesterol etc........he was more concerned about my not sleeping....for now we aren't going into sleep aids, we'll meet again next week and discuss next steps...he said if i'm mostly waking up in the middle of the night, for now take a benadryl which knocks ya out for about 4 hrs which is the amount of sleep i'm missing.....if that works, we may look into lunesta or another sleep aid so if i do wake up i can fall back to sleep quickly.........the chest tightening i described is possibly angina, so we're going to get me into a cardiologist just to get the lay of the land, but he says i'm pretty dang healthy, not obese (thanks doc), so diabetes probably isn't an issue......the blood work will let us know if there's any "issues" and it's good that i made an appt rather than just try and ignore it.......

i was almost in tears when i got to my car, in gratitude. that there's nothing glaringly WRONG, no WORRY on the doctor's face....and that he didn't grab a pad and just write me a scrip for something.....funny thing for an addict to say huh? i did tell hank about the sensation i had yesterday......no secrets right? he's glad i'm taking care of me....somebody has to tri fold his undies right?????

gonna sign off for the night....just want ya'll to know i'm quite OK, and being proactive so i can be here a long long time and keep an eye on our dear hank and baby girl renee..........

[anvilhead]

check your accounts....hank's stimulus payment was deposited, full amount even! i immediately transferred it to savings. sitting here NOT drinking coffee as i have the blood test at about 8am.....slept pretty well, and right on schedule the period started! woo hoo......

got mr wonderful out the door with a smile and a full lunch box. supposed to be a halfassed decent day, 60 something. bit chilly now tho....saw the eagle hunting fish, our binoculars just don't give us a good enough view of the nest in the big tree across the lake.....

now it's really friday right? TGIF!

[ajangels2]

Where's everyone at today?

[Jewelz]

I just got on I am working from home today.

I didnt get my stimulas and I was scheduled for it... made me extremely annoyed but thank god I didnt spend it before I got it.