Pennies for your thoughts part 64

[WENDYLOST101]

Thanks guys. I know I can tell yall anything. Its not cause I think you get tired of hearing it, its just cause I dot even know what to say anymore. I am at such a loss with everything. What my life has become. What my husbands life has become. What my child life could become. Its agonizing. I know I have no control over what AH does. I know I can only control myself and for the time being my 4 year old son. I feel like I am going crazy.

I am so glad to have all of you here with me. Even though the reason we are all here is crazy, I am glad that you all are the ones here with me. Walking this path with me.

[anvilhead]

wendy there's a saying that i'm probably gonna botch but basically it goes - wait found it, it's a quote by Winston Churchill

If you are going thru Hell, KEEP GOING!!!

the only way OUT is thru honey.......just press on, don't dally, find the nearest exit........just like a fire drill..........move surely, but with care, and always keep safety first!!!!

[anvilhead]

just up from a lovely nap......i took off about 8:30, hit Walmart, boom boom boom found three cute soft cotton tops, less than $8 each (i am SUCH a fashionista!) and a tri pack of undies, zoomed straight to the candles, gribbed the cart tightly as i passed some other things that caught my eye, grabbed a couple cheapie towels for drying off bucky at the staggering price of a buck fifty each, and got OUTTA there! swung by petco, hell no don't open til TEN, ah but there's a Great Clips, some vietnamese kid gave me the best haircut $15 can buy and home she went! red rocket was in the drive.....as predicted they got rained out....by the feel of his soaking wet clothes on the porch they got hit pretty hard!!! caught him breaking into his lunch box for a sandwich and playing a game of madden, that naughty hank.....i had a hebrew national and then snuggled down to watch some history thing on nostredamus with my eyes closed.....the boys joined me and we did the three dog nite napfest....now it's a bit breezy but also half sunny.......hank's showered and looking divine and i believe he and bucky are headed to petco now for some tube food and treats.........

[anvilhead]

and........ta da.....i found ten minutes and finally got that damn color in my hair! i'd lost the box a while ago so it was a bit of a mystery what the COLOR was......very dark brown....not a grey in site! HA. double HA. looks all shiny and healthy once again........in typical man fashion hank's a little non committal about the whole thing......at least i don't look a tired ole grey mare any more!!!!

[Impurrfect]

Wendy, I'm sorry you're struggling, but I know that whenever I have something bothering me, posting here makes me feel a little better because I know my friends care.

Anvil - it's about darn time you did the 10-minute hair color! I got my hair cut the other day, and now need to find something to get rid of MY gray..luckily it blends in pretty good with the blonde.

I really, really hate PMS. My coworkers are lucky I didn't strangle them all! It's amazing how something that would only mildly irritate me, can now seem like a HUGE issue this week!

Tonight is my Friday, so I can hibernate in my room after that and not lash out at the family. Brit is home for a few days and if she has PMS, we have to not barely speak to each other. My stepmom says she wants to run away from home when we're like that. At least after a few more days, I'll be back to "normal"

Have a good Tuesday!

[Japic05]

Up & At 'Em Folks - It's Morning and Time to Rise & Shine!

ok - well I'll give ya a few more minutes/hours until ya haf ta shine - but I believe risin' is not an option - up up up!!!

Why am I this cheery this morning - hmm I don't know - why not?

Just working on having a wonderful day - if only in my mind!!

Hope that each of you will too!!

[kj0975]

Rita is that part of the fake it til you make it things? I'm up and at em. Finishing up payroll I know your all jealous that I have this FABULOUS job!!! How can u not be jealous. I gotta go check my checking acct to see if my tax check is in my acct. Wouldnt that make it a GREAT day!!

[Jewelz]

Kim I was thinking of the same thing wondering if my tax rebate is there... imagine I would be sooo happy.

[anvilhead]

no stimulus in MY economy yet! oh well, just gonna tuck most of it in savings and pay up on a couple bills anyway.......

so i got the UP thing going, but no At 'Em yet.....i swear mornings are getting tougher......had another wicked band of showers pass over about 3 am, i thought oh no, hank's never gonna get any work in this week...but it's partly cloudy now, clouds moving at a pretty good clip. gonna fling myself in the shower soon and pretend like i'm really into this!

sure loved that day off yesterday....can't be greedy, gotta be grateful....plus the boss is back today so it's best i'm there and she thinks i'm a dedicated worker.....

let's all have a good one, ok gang????

[itiswhatitis...]

hi everybody -

i have been reading up on things - i pop on here once in a while and just wanted to take a moment - let everyone know life is good and say hi...

i think of you all often and pray when necessary (does god have a quota?????)

i love rita asking *why am i so cheery? - why not?* it reminds me off the lincoln quote *a person is only as happy as they make their mind up to be*...

peter (my husband) had his hip replaced a few weeks ago and is doing great (he sees his boss sometime this week to see about his job - keep him in your prayers if you could) - z is home from school and going on a huge job interview today (say a little prayer for him too...) - h is going to chicago for a choir competition - the symphony and great america - i get tired just typing all of that and she is doing it all in two days - better her than me - ty is playing baseball and doing really good he's been really good at football and really good at basketball so our first year in baseball has been fun - and max is just about as much fun as a three year old can be...

so that is my life in a condensed version - i just wanted to say hi and let you know all is ok here - good thoughts and godspeed to each and everyone of you...

love,
s

[cinderellawkids]

morning, Im here, I was told this morning I make an awful gangster wife, haha, duh. Letting AH fall and pick up his own pieces, refusing to help, refusing to advise, refusing to discuss.

I feel pretty good about it

[cookconfay]

Morning...I'm here too. Man I'm tired, I was busy all night in my dreams. It was a very intense drug dream! Drug of choice and everything.....lots of it, free too. Been a while since I've had one of those!!

Really, I don't think but in like 2 total dreams like that do I actually use though. It's weird. Someone either walks in ...in the dream...or I miss the shot, or something....I just don't get "off" in my dreams. Still rattles me on occasion.

Got the big "shoot" goin on this weekend, not really lookin forward to it, cuz I 'm still so wore out from last weekend, but...it is some extra money so that's nice.

Ya'll have a good one!!!

[Japic05]

((itis)) - hey honey - good to see ya check in with us every now & again - sendin out those prayers!!!

Cindi - you make an awful gangsters wife cuz you're in the mafiaso!! A member of the "family"!!!!

Connie-talkin about gangsters, mafias and the big "shoot" - wonder if we are raising a few "flags" with the watchdogs?????

ok - I'm off to work now - traveling to another parish (county for you different folks) courthouse to do some more research - see ya this afternoon!!!!!!!!

ta ta for now!!

[cookconfay]

:rof I never thought of it like that......yes there will be the "big guns" there! Loads of cash, and lots of guns hahahaha Hell some of 'em probably run a few drugs? Ha! Actually there is one guy who works with the DEA, he has some of his fingers on each hand blown off cuz someone sent him a bomb in the mail. He's a real jerk!

[cinderellawkids]

Cindi - you make an awful gangsters wife cuz you're in the mafiaso!! A member of the "family"!!!!

LMAO and he and his family thinks its cause I dont care.....

[cookconfay]

Just tell him to watch his step and never take his eyes off of his back! Never know about this family stuff!!!!

[ajangels2]

Morning everyone... I'm here as well. I was supposed to have a midwife appointment this morning but they are delivering a baby a few towns away... so I'll see them on Friday. The weekend was divine. The pool party was a hit and everyone had a great time. Yesterday I finally got my focus back at work and was able to accomplish my things to do list. Working for a day number two on that one. Wish that stimulus check would get here fast. I'm ready to get my A/C fixed in the van and its a toss up invest in a desktop computer or take partial of that money and put it into AH's truck so it can run better for work. I'm thinking its gonna have to be plan B and fix the truck. Dangit... really want that computer but if he doesn't work can't pay for the service on that computer. Such as the slippery slope of life I guess...

Wendy... hope you are having a better today. Don't be too hard on yourself you are doing the best you can with what you've got right now.

As for the rest of you... have a great day!! Check back later

[cinderellawkids]

No stimulous check for me either, Darn I really want a small amount of it to take the kids to Universal. Im sure its coming, they say comes by social security number. Mine starts with 5 so Im in the middle, maybe in a few weeks.

Guys I had no carbs yesterday, or very little, and I feel great, had lots of energy last night and still do.

Now Im trying to figure out how to design the rest of my sunroom/patio where my pond and fountain is, thinking adirondeck chairs and palm trees

[ajangels2]

That sounds beautiful Cindi... how relaxing.

Speaking of relaxing... really feeling the need for a weekend getaway. Was hoping to book a weekend in Anna Maria Island on the beach. I have been looking at small bungalow's that have full kitchen's, swimming pools, and right on the beach. AH and I could use a break from the stress and to maybe rejuvinate our marriage... but alas bills and such are priorities. I may have to wait until my last trimester to do it.

[cinderellawkids]

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For us an amusement park will be the rejuvinating thing to calm all our hyper activities

[anvilhead]

our "vacations" will include trips to home depot, lowes, the dump for the next little while!!! we're thinking we want to tear the roof off the BBQ/Tiki Hut next and tidy up the backyard patio area BEFORE launching into the flagstone project by the entryway......the darn roof is really becoming an eyesore and bucky is just itching to help scamper off with as many remnants as possible and arrange them in the yard for us!!! it's a struggle with SO many things on the TO DO/Want To Do list to prioritize but we are still following our realtor's advice and sort of letting the house tell us what's next.....

looks like hank's stimulus check will arrive May 9 and i'll be last in line way out on May 16. hope they don't run out of money!!!!

feeling much better now - once the day gets a rollin' i feel fabulous, it's just going from that state of inertia to movement. lovely bucky walk this morning.....the world cloaked in SPRING! longish commute with a 2 car fender bender in the middle, b*tch in a bmw would NOT let me over.....like it's MY fault the lane is blocked. oh well, may karma get your @ss......

i think i'm gonna do some filing and stuff and regain the upper hand on my office today......it's not like i need a machete to get in the door, but there is definitely room for improvement!

[kj0975]

It goes by the last 2 digits of your ssn. Mine should be here next week. A trip away would be nice but I'm gonna do the smart thing and pay off some bills. If I dont have $ for bills I sure as hell dont have $ for a vacation. Gotta get my wants and my needs in order. Needs have to be paid wants can wait for another time. So I guess mine is already spent but in a wise way. On the other hand if my bills are paid I wll have extra $ in my pocket so we might be able to afford a nice trip anyways. Always thinking...