Pennies for your thoughts part 64

[cinderellawkids]

Yeah KJ and when you bought 9 beers you got 1 free, beer was hand delivered in the bleachers but for the soda you had to wait in line for an hour. Im having a bad day today. Im moody and dont feel all that great, I think its just exhaustion, and weirdly too I feel....bored with monateny (sp). I guess deep down Im still a drama addict and its a daily struggle as well.

Im sorry you didnt get you stimulous check, no surprise we cant count on them when said.

In the zoo news:
Baby rats opened their eyes this morning...so cute. 1 more week and petstore they go. Turtles are enjoying their pond and apparently a toad got stuck in there overnight, found him laying on their basking log.
Other animals, need flea control...again.

[Jewelz]

I didnt get any stimulas check either.. wasnt counting on it too much but was hoping.

About a year ago I lent a very close friend of mine 500 dollars because she was aving a extremely rough time, going through a divorce and such. She made one payment of half the amount about 4 months ago. Only because someone in her family mentioned to her when she was going to pay me. Its been hard for me to ask when she was going to pay me back. So on monday i told her cousin I was going to ask her by friday to pay me back. So happens all week she doesnt answer my calls or says she will call me back and never does. Once again this morning that happened so instead of talking to her I sent her a text asking when I will get the money she owes me. She texted me saying she will mail me a check. I dont believe I will ever lend someone money again.

When I do get this money I am using it for clothes. I lost weight and now none of my work clothes fit me right and I feel like I look sloppy with baggy pants.

[Jewelz]

woohoo my book just arrive "getting them sober" came within a day and I didnt even ask for express delivery.

[kj0975]

I have gotten burned a few times "loaning" money. I wouldnt get so upset if the people didnt act like they dont owe me $. Hey if you dont have it you dont have BUT at least let me know. Thats alot of $ I dont think you should have to ask for it she should just be responsible to pay it back. Whenever I borrow money I pay them back as soon as I get $. Cause next time if I need it I know they will help me out. I had to borrow 100 from my sister. Of course she moans and groans about it. Lets not forget that I bought all the flowers for dads funeral including the ones from HER kids. Not cheap AND she is still living in dads house for FREE. WTF its like pulling teeth with her!!

[anvilhead]

yeah we just put a line thru a name on our "friends" list...lent a guy a hundred bucks a few weeks ago, he PROMISED he'd pay it back in full that wednesday......right.......hank's called a few times, NO answer, no call back, no nothing. we're like F*ck HIM.......i guess it's worth the $100 to know this is yet another person that cannot be trusted, and is now no longer welcome in our home.....and he can stick that $$ where the sun don't shine and may karma bit him in the butt......

for the most part we've concluded that we hate people, cuz they suck. not everyone, and certainly not YOU guys!!! but most carbon based life forms.....we're turning into recluses, thank god we have our little lake retreat and get along as well as we do!!!!

altho last nite....hank was just full of it, and i'm on my side on the couch with the blankie, which could serve as a clue perhaps that i'm not in a playful mood, so he's biting me on the hip and i'm saying stop it, and bucky is confused cuz he's not sure if he should defend me OR help hank so he's barking and growling and hank's saying i'm going to break him of this, no bucky, and still biting me and i'm saying stop it and have my hand on his forehead pushing him away and he's thinking this is great fun and the dog is still confused and i finally said in THAT voice STOP IT DAMMIT! and he stomps off in a huff........like i've insulted him....THEN the guy we got bucky from calls back and now hank wants me to get up and chat with the wife and trade email addresses and stuff and i simply said NO. ya can't talk for just FIVE minutes? not now, no. more stomping off in a huff......

ya'll might wanna make a note of this, but if you see me curled up on the couch, snuggled under a blankie, just leave me there ok? don't poke sticks at me like i'm a zoo display or to check to see if there IS a bear in that cave, unless you're ready to pull back nothing but a bloody stump........cuz we will NOT be amused at your antics!!!! sheesh

it IS friday right?

[Jewelz]

LMAO Anvil... sorry to laugh but that was sooo Funny and I could see it all.

[anvilhead]

some days i don't wanna be the Mother Ship, ya know, where everybody has to be ON me??????

[cinderellawkids]

Thanks for the laugh, anvil. Im the same way with my blankie. At lunch I met my mom at Sams to get a few things (theyre coming for dinner tomorrow-its a 1st ever) then I went home to drop my meat deals off ata freezer-home. Dan had a tilapia sandwish waiting on me and I curled up with my blankie on the patio chair. I so wanted to stay there, but this work thing gets in the way. I look and feel dazed and confused I should be home. Even my 3 year old said stay home with us mommy.

Why am I more loyal to work, guys I want to go home so bad right now, just everytime Im outta here something blows up and then Im blamed cause Im not here. Im tired of putting out work fires. Im tired of being responsible, I need a vacation, but oh yeah you dont get one when your taking off with sick kids. I feel Im getting screwed here

[anvilhead]

sometimes i'll do a little mental blankie break.....and then tell myself that soon enough, soon enough i can go snuggle up. breathe cind.....it's friday, as my ex used to say they can't kill ya and eat ya......just do that damn due diligence, take pride in knowing that with everything else going on in your life, you ARE suiting up and showing up to work each and every day, job well done and all that and when you get home tonite, ask the house hold for some down time (i'm not real sure how you do that with a 3 yr old, i've heard duct tape works great!) and maybe at least go down for a nap......maybe ask for a day off soon (monday too soon????), maybe fake an illness for a day and call in sick, just run away, something........

oh and hey, how's your protein intake today?

[cinderellawkids]

Thanks Anvil.

Downtime with a three year old, funny but thats where my lil man is the greatest, he loves to snuggle on the couch. He used to sleep with me, and now theres not really room so we startedgoing to bed together, asking Daddy to stay up 30 extra minutes, and then he carries little man to other bed when he comes in.

Protein intake, ummm Oatmeal for breakfast, cashews for snack and tilapia sand for lunch. I say its pretty good. getting ready to have an apple and take my daily vitamins with a mandarin green tea. Maybe that will help????

[Jewelz]

Cindi, Michael is the same way he's all affectionate when hes getting ready to go to sleep. He lays down next to me till he's getting sleepy and then strats hugging me and gives me kisses.... I just love that.

[cinderellawkids]

Its been sweet. With the other boys by the time they were this age I had a newborn. D and I are defiantely closer cause when Dan was not living with us D was always in my bed, and then he was nights Dan wasnt home, so now that Dan is almost always there, this is the compromise, we had stopped allowing it till I realized I missed it as much as he did, sometimes we are so busy thats the only cuddle time

[Jewelz]

I feel like thats mike and my time also. Since abf been working nights and my daughter is constantly on the computer me and mike just lay down together and enjoy that special time between us.

[anvilhead]

i used to love snuggling with renee....we'd just make ourselves at home in the big bed and watch tv or whatever and then get sleepy and me being the Mother Ship she'd find some soft cushy part of me for her head.....even tho today she hates the hugs n kisses thing, if we are sitting on the couch soon enough her head is on my shoulder or in my lap.....can't deny the power of MOMMY!

[kj0975]

Well I followed Anvil's lead and snuck out. I figured I worked LATE everynight this week. So my boss left and I followed suit. I left all the lights on to make it look like I ran out LOL. HOME SWEET HOME

[cinderellawkids]

I just talked to my family and I think tonite we are making blanket tents in the livingroom and we are all sleeping out there.

[anvilhead]

way to go kim....heck i have NO boss, my assistant left already, nobody here (the two other people i think) would notice or care if i left, but i'm still here....kinda like penance....i'm glad you made a break for it!!!

and blanket tent night in the living room sounds grand, you can set up tunnel and stuff

[cinderellawkids]

Ill let Dan and kids set it up, I called a veg night, were renting a movie, eating frozen yoguart and chilling listening to the fountain on my pond, all in the a/c.

[Jewelz]

Ok I need to remind myself that nothing I could do could prevent him from using. I dont know if he did or didnt but my midn is going. He's off from work cause of the rain... he didnt say anything abnormal, said since he was off from work he was going to help his sisters friend move. Everything on the surface sounded great, fine.... but my freaking head starts going.. wondering why he went to our house after he was at his moms since hes helping his sisters friend move... why didnt he just stay at his moms. But the calm part of me said to myself he probably wanted to drop off his work stuff and then do the moving job. I mean if he got high why would he call me... I hate this freaking crap... the freaking insane thinking that goes in my head.

[cinderellawkids]

Take a deep breath and remember nothings really changed,a nd you cant change it stop it, go back in time ect. He does what eh chooses just let him deal with consequences (ie. no beer money why hes coming down, dont tip toe around him ect.)

Love yas try to have a good night no matter what

[liesagain]

hello you still here cindi its past 5

[liesagain]

sounds like you have a nice night planned...........enjoy yourself