Penny For Your Thoughts - 60

[finallyout]

Welcome! Come join us for laughs and lyrics, tears and truth, and whatever else you wanna chat about! We wanted to share a special poem, we'd hang it on the door, but they won't let us have sharp objects down here!

A Special Bond
by Rae Scales

Even though we have never met,
I feel a bond between us.
A bond that should have taken years to build,
Yet was built in a month or two.
A bond that lifelong friends should have,
Although most never do.
A bond that I am glad to share with you...
My Friend and Confidant.

You are not here in body and soul,
But as a lighted rectangle.
You come to me every day as
A message on my screen,
A message that I can rely on
To cheer me up and make my day.
Through a keyboard we share
Our ups and downs.

I have opened my inner self to you,
And you have to me as well.
We have traded secrets and laughs,
As well as sorrows and pain.
I have never met you, but feel as if
I have known you most of my life.
To most this might sound silly,
But I assure them, it is not.

[finallyout]

oooh, i got to start the thread and be the first one!

[cinderellawkids]

Im next!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[kj0975]

Just looking at that HOT guy laying in the middle of the road and my thoughts wonder to what got him laying in the middle of the road. Hes probably a GIANT Jerk and his gf kicked him out of the car while it was still driving!!!! Just a thought. By the way isnt it Nick Lachey, Jessica Simpson's ex?

Young men LOVE cougars thats what all the 24yr old boys I work with say. They LOVE older women........ So ladies you are all wanted by young cuties. Now go get the pics your holding out lies.

Live how r u doing? Keep us posted. Thinking of you.

[anvilhead]

hank will tell ya older women are the only way to go! i hope he still thinks that when i'm 50! he could also tell ya about the (ahem) mother-daughter thing.......oops, i think i wasn't supposed to say that! it was long long ago.......

[cinderellawkids]

I want cookies...

I have an overwhelming craving right now, and stupidly anxious cause my checking balance is lower than Id like it...Somethings gotta give. I guess 2 bucks for cookies wouldnt kill me, but jeez its cold and rainy outside

[cookconfay]

Ok, back from eating way too much again! I mean it's nice that my boss takes us to eat but really......I'm like the ONLY one with a weight problem! Sigh.........but no supper and lots of water this afternoon,maybe that will help???

[anvilhead]

that's another gripe i have about this monthly cycle thing....i get RAVENOUS. might have to go down and clean out the cafeteria..........

[finallyout]

i've been snacking on junk all day, thats the prob with sitting in front of the computer, i just eat and eat. yesterday i was sooo good, i was so busy that i forgot to eat till dinner time. i really hope that i lost at least a pound or two. my brain is getting fried, i need a break, be back.

[cookconfay]

Yeah....like I was talking about yesterday, you know there might be ONE friggin day a month I'm NOT eating like some kind of horse, that I'm NOT feeling ridiculously hypersensitive etc.......and I take friggin hormones. WTF?

[cinderellawkids]

Ok so I just ate a whole bad of Mint Milano cookies. The cool minty, bliss I couldnt pass up. Now I need a nap

[finallyout]

ok, i am definately signing these kids up for summer day camps - i can NOT work with this chaos. no wonder i never finish anything i start!!

[anvilhead]

summer????? as in that really nice week of weather in july? yeesh, long time to go! what about the Y or something?

[cinderellawkids]

Now feeling my sugar buzz I need to vent for a sec.
Typically AH is always gripy on his 4th day not using, last night was no different. Me being a bit bitter flew into a rage for a few moments. And stopped and everything was calm and he looked at me and said "You know Honey I really want this this time, but I was watching Dr. Drew on celebrity rehab today and he says the spouse is sick too and if you dont get better I wont." I wanted to hit him and hurt him at that very moment. It did remind me I havent been focusing on myself lately and I just went about my business. But guys that pisses me off. I havent been controlling nagging and bitching, nothing like I used to anyway.

I have heard that said and know at one point we all need treatment but I want to write Dr Drew and give him a peace of my mind for his phrasing. Because HELLO I am in recovery and AH is definately NOT.

[cinderellawkids]

4 kids in summer camp? Id hate that bill

[anvilhead]

can i sign the letter too? unbelieveable....once again make it anybody's fault but the person who actively consumes the drugs. well kiss my butt, dr drew.

[finallyout]

yeah summer is a long way off, our Y sucks, i've heard major horror stories from them. gotta find a preschool type of place for them, just for a few hours a day. and yes 4 kids in summer camp is way expensive, i told chas that i don't care what it costs they have to go for at least 3 wks this year, last year was i nightmare. can't do it again.

cindi-hes just looking for someone to blame - i hear the same sh*t too, i throw it back at them, like "ok, you wanna play the who needs help game - well heres where i run down the list of his insane behaviors over the years, and by the time i'm done he shuts up. whenever i don't feel like listening to him "tease" me about something, i start in on him, like you really wanna play - cuz i'm gonna win,hands down f*cker!!

[cinderellawkids]

Im looking through show clips on youtube. when I find that one Im going to copy it we can all draft a joint electronic letter, now do we sent the letter to his popular radio show producers, VH1 or his myspace

[cookconfay]

Didn't we say earlier.....Men Suck? That's my story and I'm stickin to it....or in Mafia code talk.....I'm sticking to my guns!

[finallyout]

crap - gotta go get the older two kids from school, be back later - have a great night everyone!! a nice peaceful - take no crap from anyone night! LOL

[finallyout]

cindi- send the letter to all of them,and i wanna sign it too

[cinderellawkids]

...Your allowed to bring up the past.... thats a huge fight starter.
The conversation ended with "this is a huge trigger for me, but Im not going to let it get to me..." My smart mouth side was thinking, yeah cause you have no funds... but that would only throw gasoline on his mood.

I let it go. He called from job, glad to be back ect, coworker missed him, blah blah. Good for him...all I can think of is dont sell the weedwacker your gonna barrow this weekend to finish my yard.... again, mouth shut

[anvilhead]

let's keep in mind that this marvel of broadcasting, Celeb Rehab is on the same channel as Flavor of Love, My Fair Brady AND Scott Baio is 46......

[cinderellawkids]

Yeah your right. I just think while we all know we need recovery too, he cant say someone in active addiction has a spouse who has to change too, cause he doesnt know at what state anyones family is in. Weve all come long way over the years. Maybe he should do a show on recovering family member detached from their addict and how we coexist once weve accepted we CANNOT control them.

theres a bit of irony to an addict sitting mad at himself on the couch and deciding to watch celebrity rehab...and funnier still thats all he remembers from the show. he wasnt being mean about it though. I told him if he was seeking help from tv watch intervention, apparently though he got out the want ads after watching it, and hast called any of his family to tell them he has work, his brother and mother both called me frantic cause they ahdnt heard from them. I wanted to yell "He only calls you when he's drunk or wants to be."

[liveweyerd]

Well, it took awhile to read the whole previous thread!

Cindi, I don't know if it is going to get complicated or not. I haven't been served yet.
I have a million questions, but those can wait.

Well, he says he knew it was over in October....gee, why didn't we talk about it or anything? I asked why and he said he didn't know!
I cried good and hard when he announced he was divorcing me a while back.
But, after being separated 6 weeks or so and I am back in the house. LALALALALALA
I happen to be doing just fine. This man who is divorcing me is not the man I married and spent the 2/3 of my marriage with. I wouldn't marry this man. I wouldn't date this man. I wouldn't let this man buy me a drink.
The over-the-top was we had the most honest, trusting, compassionate relationship (except for when I get pms menopause) and now he lies and lies and lies, can't be trusted at all, does underhanded things, bad mouthes me to landlords and all who will listen (poor victim). He has some mental problems (I don't say that deragatorily, so do I), but he has MORE and will not get help anymore, take his medicines, etc, just feeds off his pity party and paranoia. And is mean.