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Today I usually go to my weekly AA meeting, but for the past 2 weeks I haven’t. The Christmas season has been a rough one again for me. Although I work the SMART Recovery program, AA still holds a place of interest and deep conflict for me. In one way I see myself going to the meeting as a way to gain some spiritual tolerance. I also like the heretical idea of a God of ones understanding in AA. I think that is what drew me to the UUA church in the first place. The fact that their early church leaders were labeled a heretics, some were burned at the stake. I guess I am a heretic’s heretic with my non-theistic belief system in a quasi-religious program. So I will go to the open meeting this morning and see if I can learn something about me, AA and a way to peaceful coexistence between the two.

"It may be that our role on this planet is not to worship God, but to create him."
..........Arthur C. Clarke

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Letting Go

Posted 07-04-2011 at 11:42 PM by Zencat (a place of interest)

Its baffling to have such a despise for something that happened many years ago. Never would have I thought that entering a recovery community that I would have to face something that I thought was long forgotten.

I have had recent times where if I could somehow escape what has troubled me all those years ago, I would be willing go. How the lingering unresolved issues resurface in the mist of being on a wellness journey resurface time and time again. There must be a way around...no...only...

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Everything Happens For A Reason

Posted 11-19-2010 at 12:44 PM by Zencat (a place of interest)

I call that phenomenon cause and effect. In recovery I need to look at the causes so I can better predict the chain of events that deliver unto me an outcome. In active addiction I was disinterested in the grounds of what I created through being caress and short sighted. Yet the effects would anger me or leave me feeling hapless to endure my horrendous fate.

Even though some causes are obscure, for the most part they can be traced down to exact events. It is in recovery where I...

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beautiful California

Posted 01-09-2008 at 10:42 PM by Zencat (a place of interest)

I did a little work in my future website, still don’t have a clue about what its going to be about . Maybe something to do with gender identity, drug abuse, sexual abuse and Hedwig…hahaha. So far its about the musical Hedwig and the angry inch. Another day clean and another day relatively sane. Good stuff. Tomorrow is group. No thoughts on that for now. Its after group that gives me the most problems. All the why questions. Then the anger. Sorrow. Another day.