Today I usually go to my weekly AA meeting, but for the past 2 weeks I haven’t. The Christmas season has been a rough one again for me. Although I work the SMART Recovery program, AA still holds a place of interest and deep conflict for me. In one way I see myself going to the meeting as a way to gain some spiritual tolerance. I also like the heretical idea of a God of ones understanding in AA. I think that is what drew me to the UUA church in the first place. The fact that their early church leaders were labeled a heretics, some were burned at the stake. I guess I am a heretic’s heretic with my non-theistic belief system in a quasi-religious program. So I will go to the open meeting this morning and see if I can learn something about me, AA and a way to peaceful coexistence between the two.
"It may be that our role on this planet is not to worship God, but to create him."
..........Arthur C. Clarke
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"It may be that our role on this planet is not to worship God, but to create him."
..........Arthur C. Clarke
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reviewing the day
Posted 01-06-2008 at 11:47 PM by Zencat
I think I’ll end the day with a journal entry and put to use the idea of reviewing the day. I think there is something in the AA big book about that. Went to UU church this morning and it was intergenerational day there. Story telling with the children. I like storytelling as a way to share the message of humanity’s joys and sorrows. Worked a little on my webpage.htm project, wow so much to learn, with all this time on my hands I feel good about taking the time to learn this. Big subject. Visited a little with my friend girl, ha-ha…not really a girlfriend but somewhere in between, I guess its called these days a friend with benefits…lol and that’s ok with me. I not sure I'm ready for a deeply intimate relation yet, so I’ll take as it is and be blessed with that. Having been so lonely most of my life this certainly a big joy for me.
11 days clean, kinda suspect I have become a sporadic alcoholic if there is such a thing. I get about 60 or 90 days and then drink for one evening. Time to stop putting off my therapist search and call the numbers I have found. I could use a therapist that has a private practice because I’m tired of having the ones a mental health transfer, move, leave…whatever with almost no notice and leave me hanging. I hope I can find a psychoanalyst like the Dr recommended…yea I know good luck with that on government medical , ah.. We’ll see.
11 days clean, kinda suspect I have become a sporadic alcoholic if there is such a thing. I get about 60 or 90 days and then drink for one evening. Time to stop putting off my therapist search and call the numbers I have found. I could use a therapist that has a private practice because I’m tired of having the ones a mental health transfer, move, leave…whatever with almost no notice and leave me hanging. I hope I can find a psychoanalyst like the Dr recommended…yea I know good luck with that on government medical , ah.. We’ll see.
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Well done on 11 days clean
Posted 01-07-2008 at 10:36 AM by Rowan
