Today I usually go to my weekly AA meeting, but for the past 2 weeks I haven’t. The Christmas season has been a rough one again for me. Although I work the SMART Recovery program, AA still holds a place of interest and deep conflict for me. In one way I see myself going to the meeting as a way to gain some spiritual tolerance. I also like the heretical idea of a God of ones understanding in AA. I think that is what drew me to the UUA church in the first place. The fact that their early church leaders were labeled a heretics, some were burned at the stake. I guess I am a heretic’s heretic with my non-theistic belief system in a quasi-religious program. So I will go to the open meeting this morning and see if I can learn something about me, AA and a way to peaceful coexistence between the two.
"It may be that our role on this planet is not to worship God, but to create him."
..........Arthur C. Clarke
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"It may be that our role on this planet is not to worship God, but to create him."
..........Arthur C. Clarke
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robust directions
Posted 01-07-2008 at 10:50 PM by Zencat
Well, the friend girl told me what I need to do. Find a place of peace and protection within me. I admit I have plenty of fears, apparently one of those fears is the fear of success. According to her, I know to much about what and why I have these fears, but what help has it been? Little. I agree with her , I could act more and discover latter. It was really hard to hear her explain, communicate her frustration with me. I have become complacent with regards to my emotional development and stability. Time to push past the fears. Good ole friend girl giving me a kick in the pants…its about time she said her peace with me. I could use robust directions more often.
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