Ok so thats excellent. Unfortunately my gambkling problem is bigger than i thought and in the short time i have been sober have lost €40000 which is a great move. I am determined not to gamble at all anymore which is going to be strange! I have just started to get some money together and this is normally when i would gamble again!

Am starting to attend AA meetings, work is a bit up and down so not sure which country i will be in for april and that will determine where i spend my next...

wow i have started remembering all the old artists and songs!

betty boo
prodigy - fire
etc

cool! i hate youtube normally at least it has one good use!

So a new year! I am so excited about this year and want to do so much, the following are things i want to do for now:

1. start spanish lessons
2. quit smoking
3. get fit again
4. read more
5. get a back tattoo
6. save money
7. do well at work

Will read this periodically and see where i am!

Well i feel very sad reading my blog posts from earlier on this year. What a complete mess i was and remained being for most of this year.

I started the new job in barcelona and kept drinking. I found myself drinking a certain amount each night, a 5/6 cans of lager and then as much wine as i needed, approx 1.5 bottles, then maybe some food maybe not.

Anyways I was at the bottom, I was starting to think about ending it all as it was not really living which is a fair...

Wow drinking is a great friend (not) anyway start new job in different country in 2 days time...so bored of my own voice!

Anyone reads this, you're f***ed with it, if you think you have a problem in anyway you have a problem!

yawn, hopefully my next post will be more useful...tonight was...hmm...4 beers...half bottle of champagne...1 bottle of wine...demolishing the next!

45 fags so far! and i don't mean gays for us peeps;-)