To find Hope, i had to experience desperation.
To find Surrender, i had to experience degradation.
To find Acceptance, i had to experience helplessness.
To find Faith, i had to experience self obsession.
To find Love, i had to experience uselessness.
To find Peace, i had to experience insanity.

JUST FOR TODAY my thoughts will be on my recovery, living and enjoying life without the use of drugs.
JUST FOR TODAY i will have faith in someone in N.A. who believes in me and wants to help me in my recovery.
JUST FOR TODAY i will have a program. i will try to follow it to the best of my ability.
JUST FOR TODAY through N.A. i will try to get a better perspective on my life.
JUST FOR TODAY i will be unafraid, my thoughts will be on my new associations, people who are...

As i continue to accept my life as it is, the obsession to find my value in things outside of myself stays lifted. Manipulation and control are now seen as the broken toys of my immaturity. Life takes on new meaning and i realize that i am free. Not just of the problems i had with drugs and alcohol, but also of the self centered nature of all my defects of character. i no longer have to defend myself against fear, denial, or rejection. i can be exactly who i am without an overwhelming need to be...