Yesterday was my first full day without one drop and last night's sleep was horrible! Insomnia, too hot, too cold, tossing and turning.. ughh. It's only in the last few months that I started experiencing this when I reached day two without drinking ... a clear indication that there's a problem

Well, I am going to try my darndest to keep a sense of humour about this. Nothing I can do about it now, except get through the next few days and get this out of my system. I'm...

My last binge was two days ago, on Friday. (Darn those Fridays ;-) Yesterday I had the last beer left. So today is my first day

I was reading in someone's blog yesterday about reprogramming thoughts, and this morning brought that point home. I have three children who love me. I have managed to keep my secret binge drinking life a secret. Hangover days are days that Mom didn't sleep well and is tired, or that Mom has a migraine. So here I am Mother's Day morning...

I don't want to live this way anymore. I'm tired of waking up tired, hungover, feeling guilty and ashamed of myself, self-loathing. I have said this many times in the last year, have gone several days sober, then slipped, and binged. When I woke up this morning after binging, I feel so depressed and hopeless, and wonder what is the use of trying again. But it is what I must do, what I want to do, as many times as I need to, because getting up and trying again really is the only option. I need...