Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow

There are two days in every week that we should not worry about.
Two days that should be kept free from fear and apprehension.

One is YESTERDAY, with its mistakes and cares, its faults, and blunders, its aches and pains.
Yesterday has passed, forever beyond our control.

All the money in the world cannot bring back yesterday.
We cannot undo a single act we performed.
Nor can we erase a single...

I always have vivid dreams. Each morning I remember 3 to 5 dreams I've had the night before. It would take me an hour or two to tell the details of these dreams as I remember so many.
Last night was no different, except that it was a completely horrific dream. I cried and cried when I awoke and am still shaken by it.
I'm going to start in the middle of the dream, the beginning wasn't much.....
I'm on a plane with three other people and the pilot. Two rows of two seats. ...

So far I've lived two lives. I am embarking on my third.
I have no idea who I really am. My last two lives were lived by the old Tay-Lyn.
My first life: I left home at 15 because of an alcoholic mother. She brought up a nervous, needy, desperate for attention kid with no self-esteem. A kid full of anger, bitterness, hatred, resentment and sadness. When that girl left home she knew nothing about the world and was alone. Her desperation for attention and neediness led her down...

This is a thread I posted today, I decided to save it for future reference as I want to track my journey.

I want to get better in many ways.
For the first time in my life....I see that I have deep rooted problems. I always knew I had problems, but I really covered them up and ignored them.
Problems that may or may not have contributed to my drinking. Problems that I still have in my sobriety.
In previous attempts at sobriety, I didn't do any recovery work. This...

I can't help but see myself as the drunk I used to be.
I feel as though every friend, family member or person I've ever been drunk around, sees me now...the way I used to be.
I see myself that way.
I feel awkward, embarassed, antsy, uncomfortable in my own skin when around others, or by myself.
I can't stop thinking about all the times I was stupid, loud, mean, self-centered, out-of-control.....a downright ass.
When I'm alone.....I feel my skin crawling....