http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/tanyapmc/ Online Support Groups for Addicts, Alcoholics and their Family, Friends and Loved Ones. Sun, 21 Mar 2010 17:36:32 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/tanyapmc/ http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/tanyapmc/87-bored-life.html Sun, 06 Jan 2008 04:35:00 GMT I am going to be a year sober on January 17. The first year of sobriety has had so many wonderful times in it. Most things in my life are either BS or AS. Before sobriety or after sobriety. ... I am going to be a year sober on January 17. The first year of sobriety has had so many wonderful times in it.

Most things in my life are either BS or AS. Before sobriety or after sobriety.

The AS is much better than the BS. It WAS BS for sure.

Now I am getting a little bored with life.

After getting sober there were MANY firsts.

First sober day.

First sober week.

First sober month.

First sober sex. (THAT was scary, but great)

First sober vacation.

First sober dinner out.

First sober July 4th.

First sober birthday.

You get the idea.

Now, I feel like I have done all of that and I am bored with life.

I love excitement. Almost to a fault.

I am bored in my marriage. I have never had an affair and I am surely not going to start that in sobriety.

I am bored with daily life.

I got EXCITED about using. Now there is not that type of excitement.

Of course, there is also not the excitement of detox, jail and blackouts. ]]> tanyapmc http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/tanyapmc/87-bored-life.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/tanyapmc/64-day-hell.html Thu, 03 Jan 2008 07:28:48 GMT What a day! It started at 3am with a panic attack that woke me up. I had never had one until I got clean/sober. Probably because I was on so many benzos. I woke up startled and frightened. I had a... What a day! It started at 3am with a panic attack that woke me up. I had never had one until I got clean/sober. Probably because I was on so many benzos.

I woke up startled and frightened. I had a psych dr appt today and I did go. He said that I am having panic attacks. He wants me to come to him twice a month for therapy. He totally understands my aversion to taking pills. He is the same dr that saw me through detox.

It pisses me off to have to go back to therapy. Our families of origin can really screw us up.

I am happy to be clean and sober. I do get to feel today. I guess that is good.

Sorry so negative. :sad2::sad2:

I think I am way to boring to have a blog. ]]> tanyapmc http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/tanyapmc/64-day-hell.html