My Blog, Road to Finding myself sober
Posted 06-12-2009 at 07:21 AM by Sweet30
Well, quick little information about myself.
Im 30, and have been struggling with alcohol i would say my whole life, but more recently on an Everyday Basis for just over a year. Started out with Weekend drinking, Then spilled over to weekday drinking, at first a few drinks at night to help me sleep, and before i knew it was was starting my day with boose rather then coffee...
I drink about 750 ml of Rye in 2 days, sometimes a bit less sometimes a bit more. On the weekends i usually drink about 15 to 20 beer.
I'm not sure why i let myself go this far, i guess i liked the feeling of being buzzed, drunk. Now i don't even remember that plesant feeling anymore, all i remember now, if anything of my days is stomach turning fall down, throwing up, toooo drunk.
I am attempting to ween myself, and i know most people will tell me it never works! But today is day three, rather then my usually 7 to 12 Drinks a day, three days ago i went to 2 in the am and a smaller 1 in the late afternoon.
I have been good, not cheating not drinking more then my 3 a day...so far so good, im finding the 3 drinks are cutting it and though i do miss the buzz the 3 drinks are enough that i have virtually no craving for more.
The reason i am weening myself if im HORRIFIED of life threatning DT'S...and im hoping by cutting down gradually, that i dont experience them.
Thanks for reading
Im 30, and have been struggling with alcohol i would say my whole life, but more recently on an Everyday Basis for just over a year. Started out with Weekend drinking, Then spilled over to weekday drinking, at first a few drinks at night to help me sleep, and before i knew it was was starting my day with boose rather then coffee...
I drink about 750 ml of Rye in 2 days, sometimes a bit less sometimes a bit more. On the weekends i usually drink about 15 to 20 beer.
I'm not sure why i let myself go this far, i guess i liked the feeling of being buzzed, drunk. Now i don't even remember that plesant feeling anymore, all i remember now, if anything of my days is stomach turning fall down, throwing up, toooo drunk.
I am attempting to ween myself, and i know most people will tell me it never works! But today is day three, rather then my usually 7 to 12 Drinks a day, three days ago i went to 2 in the am and a smaller 1 in the late afternoon.
I have been good, not cheating not drinking more then my 3 a day...so far so good, im finding the 3 drinks are cutting it and though i do miss the buzz the 3 drinks are enough that i have virtually no craving for more.
The reason i am weening myself if im HORRIFIED of life threatning DT'S...and im hoping by cutting down gradually, that i dont experience them.
Thanks for reading
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Hi sweet 30,
Have you come to terms with being an alcoholic? I am a pill addict, and am also on the road to recovery. I am addicted to mainly ultram/percocet/vicodin. But, I will tell you, that I know because my father was and is an alcoholic, you can and willl have seizures from it.
And I want to tell you, just how scary that can be. Ultram is not usually a very popular drug, it's a non opiate pain killer, however, I too like u began taking it daily, started on the weekends to "help my back" then began buying up to 400 pills online per week, and having 3 gran maul seizures in the last 7 months, breaking my nose, and cracking my head open on my kitchen floor from overdosing.
I am sober now. Getting off Ultram specifically, is far worse than most painkillers for some reason too.
I know how hard this is. I promise you everything, if I can do it, so can you. Your doing the right thing by doing it slow, u dont' want to throw your body into shock by stopping "cold turkey" u can have seizures from alcohol withdrawls if you do i've heard.
I applaud you for coming this far. Have you thought about the next step? When "D" day is?? When your going to stop 100%?? Set yourself a plan. A mental game plan.
It helped me to stay 100% busy, I became physically ill, sweating really bad, didn't sleep for 2 days, amongst other things I won't get into....
So stay busy! Tell a friend! Plan events!! Stay with people you care about for support! Don't go it alone!Posted 06-12-2009 at 10:02 PM by lizzip85
