Well I'm here, now what do I do?
Posted 07-08-2008 at 07:43 PM by Suzisharpshoote
wow I'm here, now what do I do? I've made the commitment, I could make excuses why I'm not really needing to be here, I can go a week maybe two without a VT as I like to call them, but then again, its only if I "REALLY" force myself, more likely its eh, 3 stiff ones, 3-4 times a week, Friday nights are like waiting for the rain in the desert...
I went shopping with my kid on Saturday, morning, after a hard 4th, I was functioning, with love & concern, all day long....like I ALWAYS do,until in the dressingroom, the kid looked at me & said, man your eyes are all bloodshot, why are your eyes bloodshot. dang, why did I look in that mirror? the kid was right, at 12, the kid was right... so I'm here, now what do I do...4 days..
I went shopping with my kid on Saturday, morning, after a hard 4th, I was functioning, with love & concern, all day long....like I ALWAYS do,until in the dressingroom, the kid looked at me & said, man your eyes are all bloodshot, why are your eyes bloodshot. dang, why did I look in that mirror? the kid was right, at 12, the kid was right... so I'm here, now what do I do...4 days..
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Hi and welcome - I see you've posted on our forums to introduce yourself - that's a good first step.
There's a lot of inspiration and hope here - stick around and do lots of reading.
You too can find freedom from drugs and alcohol.Posted 07-08-2008 at 09:16 PM by Rowan
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welcome suzi. congrats on 4 days -- i can understand what you said about "REALLY" forcing yourself. im on day 10 and have to swerve my thoughts away constantly because i know once a stinkin' thinkin' thought gets a hold, it's all over. i'm seeing how long i can last out--you can join me and others on the thread 2 weeks and under on the boards. and there's lots of reading to do here at sr
there are so many things i've learned from just reading past threads.
again welcome and best wishes
Posted 07-09-2008 at 04:19 AM by faith08 -
Hi suzi and congrats in taking the first step in doing something for the good of yourself and your children , It does get better and it does really work If youwant it bad enuff .Never thought i had a problem it was everyone else who had a problem with whati was doing till i relized i was wrong ( and im not one who likes to be wrong) But i proudly admit it now , have you concidered makin a meeting ? its something that has helped all of us in one way or another . getting a sponcer and reading the big book is a really good step to take , just pends on how badly you want what we all have. I wish you the best and keep it simple one day at a time!Posted 07-10-2008 at 12:33 PM by endzoner
