Dreams of a Cowardly Kid

Words like arrows fill up the mind,
crossbows aiming, taking all time
away
from you.

Buffalo stampede as they run you off the cliff,
chest pumping, sanity fleeting, but legs stiff
they
fail you.

Hands flail as the quicksand swallows,
men stretching and reaching, going psycho
frantic
for you.

Cars cut through the knuckle, speeding forward
...

*WARNING: GRAPHIC*

On February 25th, 2009 I found him. Dead. Laying on the couch like he was asleep, but with a bullet hole in his head and blood everywhere...

His face was pale, his eyes were open, his hand laying over the gun. Fresh track marks surrounded by various bruises on the inside of his elbows lay plain in sight. A syringe on the end table. All the alarms in my head sounded off. I put my hand on his chest to see if I could feel him breathing, a heart beat,...

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I’m staring at your picture dad
Pulling up the past
Trying to learn about this father that I never had
So young, so wrong, and ye gone
It’s only, me, mom Virginia & God
Were all alone, and are leader is not home
The crossroads took you or these demons below
I’m feeling the cold, you were not here, not there
When I had my first fight I was so scared
When I had my first kiss...

I didn't use.
I didn't say anything.
Give me a break.
Tell me you love me for once,
And then everything will be known.

They told me to think about it.
They told me to talk everyday.
They told me they didn't want to see me do it.
They told me I was heading down the wrong road.
They told me if I did it nothing would change.
They told me if I did it, it would be the true end.
They told me if I did it there would be no relief.
They told me if I did it I would cause more hurt.
They told me if I did it more shame would be brought.
They told me if I left everyone...