http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/sf69/ Online Support Groups for Addicts, Alcoholics and their Family, Friends and Loved Ones. Sun, 22 Nov 2009 01:41:21 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/sf69/ http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/sf69/460-boy-my-hp-sure-does-have-strange-sense-humor.html Fri, 14 Mar 2008 17:39:04 GMT I've mentioned in posts before about how I'm in a bowling league.

In this league, around various holidays, we have a little competition where the top bowlers for that evening win a bottle of booze. Last night, for St. Patty's Day, we were bowling for bottles of Jameson's. And wouldn't you know it, I won one. I've been in this league for 5 years and never won a bottle before. Now that I quit drinking, I win one the first time I do it sober.

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No worries though. I had band practice after bowling and gave the bottle to my singer. He was happy. ]]> SF69 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/sf69/460-boy-my-hp-sure-does-have-strange-sense-humor.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/sf69/240-my-drive-home-work.html Fri, 01 Feb 2008 23:11:03 GMT On my drive home from work, with my mind just wandering, I had one of those "Eureka!" moments on why I abuse alcohol.

Before I go on, let me just say that this isn't me copping out or creating some sort of denial land to reside in. I'm still as commited to keep sober as before.

For some reason I got to thinking about drinking patterns. As I've mentioned in the forums, I was a 2-3 day a week drinker, but I would get the most out of those few days. I wondered why on rare occasions I could 'control' my drinking (2 or 3 beers then stop with no problem), and why most of the time I'd go out and drink to a complete excess.

It hit me. Much of it comes down to my social anxiety, especially when dealing with women.

The 'control' times, like Christmas with my family or going over to buddy's to watch a football game, I didn't want anything more out of the beer than just a beverage. But 90% of the time I would drink excessively, I would be out at a bar or club trying to meet/pick up women. And 2 or 3 beers didn't cut it in helping me to get over my shyness. I need at least 8 to go into Cassanova mode.

I'm hoping that by removing alcohol from my life equation, that I'll finally be able to see the problems in my life and be able to work on them myself, and not use alcohol to do the 'work'. ]]> SF69 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/sf69/240-my-drive-home-work.html