hopeless.
Posted 08-25-2009 at 05:09 PM by serenityslm
i was in a rehab for 5 months. thought i was really going to do the whole sober deal. i had it set in my heart that i really was. when i got out i actually stayed sober, went to meetings, got a temp sponsor. and it was great, everyone at AA made me feel at home and that was my comfort zone. but my family thinks that i made AA more then it was supposed to be.. ive had countless fights with them over it and it they jus never seemed to understand. for awhile i still went and had some kinda hope that i would make it but i slowly let it bring me down, let it bring me to a drink. i didnt get as bad as i was before i went into treatment but i do drink more, i dont even wana drink.. it jus puts me in my comfort zone.. cause i'm not comfortable in my own skin.. i dont wana do this anymore. i wana be able to prove to everyone and myself that i could stay clean .. i just need some help. some suggestions.. everything i think of always seems to be wrong. thanks <3
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My father's a minister and my mother is the head lady at their church. They think i did my drugs because of Satan or sin or whatever. They do not accept NA for what it is- a possibility of non-Christian reformed addicts to help people like me out. Anyways, i know what you mean about failure of the family (even if it outwardly appears stable) to support you. Go to meetings. Find friends who accept you for who you are. Let them and more importantly let YOU see you for who you are. You aren't bad. Being here with us proves that point.Posted 08-26-2009 at 04:45 PM by pinpoint
