Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep

This is the hardest part for me. The weekends, where my husband is home and all he wants to do is sleep all day, then he'll wake up later agitated that he didn't "do" anything and be disgusted with himself.

And my kids just want to be around him. They will sit on his body on top of the couch and watch TV, just to be near him. I want to go out and do things but they want to "stay" with him. But I can't leave them here, they are too young to look after themselves and he is too tired to care for them.

Every weekend I promise myself that this week I will find the time to do that paperwork while the kids are at school so I can end this madness. Then the week starts and he is at work and it's not "so bad" because it's just me and the kids again...
{sigh**