A start...
Posted 03-30-2008 at 09:27 PM by Serenity8
I should have started this long ago.
What a journey it has been.
I am in a completely dead marriage, to a man with many addictions/compulsions. Just talking to him about day to day stuff is difficult. I can't remember when I got to the "I'm done" point, but I know it's been a long time and time keeps passing on and on and on... I'd say it's been about 2 years since I've really, truly wanted out. This limbo is hell on earth to me.
What is extremely difficult for me, is that we have 2 small children. Who love and adore him, but who are also unfortunate victims of this disease. This is the last part of him I'm still trying to "control", it's his relationship with his children. I realized that recently, and I need to work on it.
I guess that is all for now.
What a journey it has been.
I am in a completely dead marriage, to a man with many addictions/compulsions. Just talking to him about day to day stuff is difficult. I can't remember when I got to the "I'm done" point, but I know it's been a long time and time keeps passing on and on and on... I'd say it's been about 2 years since I've really, truly wanted out. This limbo is hell on earth to me.
What is extremely difficult for me, is that we have 2 small children. Who love and adore him, but who are also unfortunate victims of this disease. This is the last part of him I'm still trying to "control", it's his relationship with his children. I realized that recently, and I need to work on it.
I guess that is all for now.
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Wow, your post really got me thinking about some fears that have been rolling around in my head.
I too am in a relationship with an alcoholic/addict.
I dunno if our relationship is dead or dying...but it sure feels like it.
And he and I are both in recovery!
LOL...I thought it was supposed to get better!
As much as it bothers me, Ive started to pay attention to the people who have been telling me that many relationships simply dont make it. The ones that have addictions involved have an even less chance.
I hate hearing that. It scares me silly.
Ive never been alone.
But I keep telling myself that God has plans for me that Im not aware of.
If it means being alone for a period of time, so be it.
If it means trying to patch this mess of a relationship....so be it.
Whatever the future holds is going to have to be ok with me....cuz whether I like it or not, I have zero control over it.
All I have is today.....and Im just going to try and make it the best day possible.
(((hugs))) to you.Posted 03-31-2008 at 11:15 AM by ImJulie
