Hi SR readers,

This actually wasn't my last drunk. I wrote this in the fall of 2007. I came into Alcoholics Anonymous in July of 2007. I struggled that whole year. I just couldn't or wouldn't accept that I was an alcoholic. I knew i was hurting and just wanted to stop feeling all the emotional pain I had. Here's what i wrote:


My Last Drunk

This is what happened on my last night drunk. It started out like any other drinking...

Hi Everyone, its been a long time since I've been on Soberrecovery. I'm still alive and well. LOL I've been sober for 3 1/2 yrs now. Still very active in Alcoholics Anonymous. I decided since I have no time for the forums that I'll write in my blog again.

I wrote this in Dec. 2007 but my actual sobriety date is Jan 19, 2008

My detoxing wasn't as bad as some people can be. I think I was just lucky. I have always taken a lot of vitamins even while I was drinking. So...

This is what happened. On Dec 31, 2007 I just lost my mind. I had a 100 days and I didn’t care. I just wanted to get high on pot (all though I didn’t have any) and get drunk. I wasn’t thinking about telling anyone or going to a meeting or even praying. I just wanted to give up. It’s what I do best anyway. So why not.

That afternoon I got out my pot pipe and cleaned out the little resin that was left in there since I had no...

I'm feeling really hopeless tonight. This sucks. I can't stop drinking. I wish I didn't clean out my pot pipe and smoke it on New Years Eve. That's what started it. Then i drank that night and now I'm right back where i started when i first joined SR.

I don't log on much any more because i feel like i don't belong on here. So i mostly luck, hoping I'll get the desire to stop drinking back again.
I liked what i read on here today. "My spirit was dying", that's me....

I feel like writing tonight. I'm not going to write about my drinking tonight though. I am going to my home group meeting tomorrow night. Hopefully this time i open my mouth up and share.

I want to write about cats tonight. I have loved cats since i was about 13 when we got our first cat Charlie. Most all of the cats my family has gotten including myself were either strays or in shelters. Some were unwanted kittens.

I can't stress how important it is to have your...