http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/rvpurple/ Online Support Groups for Addicts, Alcoholics and their Family, Friends and Loved Ones. Thu, 16 Feb 2012 06:55:56 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/rvpurple/ http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/rvpurple/220-losing-my-wife-after-10-years-input-please.html Tue, 29 Jan 2008 07:44:09 GMT :codiepoliceAs a child I was abused for years after my parents disowned me and put me in state custody to grow up. Those years changed my life and really ucked up my mind. I never had anyone to talk... :codiepoliceAs a child I was abused for years after my parents disowned me and put me in state custody to grow up. Those years changed my life and really ucked up my mind. I never had anyone to talk to or trust just when I started to they to give up on me. years later after abusing drugs I thought helped me deal with my problems. Well about all it did was help me bottle up my problems and everything seemed fine to everyone on the outside but inside I am the saddest person. I am very outgoing and like to make people laugh and always "click" with people. In 1997 I met the girl of my dreams and she is the greatest creature god ever created. She came from this thing called family. I dont know this way of life and she makes me feel more loved and I trust her with everything. After getting together with her my problems seemed solved. We got married and I was the luckiest guy on earth to have her as the most glowing hottest bride I have ever seen. I have never felt such love! But then my past slowly started to catch back up with me and the visions, screams and nightmares came back and started to change how I was with her and she started using cocaine when I did and now for the past 14 months been smokin crack and both unhappy but we both love each other. 2 days ago my world fell out from underme and she told me she was unhappy and wants me to move out of state. We both are wanting to get clean and make changes for the better. I am more scared then ever before. I am just relizing how bad I ucked up losing and not paying attention to her wants and needs. Again I feel alone and my childhood is not on my mind. Only thing is how to save my marriage and get her back. I know she loves me but she is not happy and I want nothing less than happy for her. My problems are worse than ever I am alone and have lost the most special thing in the world because I am selfish controlling and want nothing but the best for me. Now I want nothing more than her to have all of me and her not to have to worry about me. I am happy just having her in my life and dont want anything else. Should we go counsiling or should we let love bring us back? Any suggestions would be great. Thanks ]]> rvpurple http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/rvpurple/220-losing-my-wife-after-10-years-input-please.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/rvpurple/219-losing-my-wife-after-10-years-input-please.html Tue, 29 Jan 2008 07:27:48 GMT As a child I was abused for years after my parents disowned me and put me in state custody to grow up. Those years changed my life and really ucked up my mind. I never had anyone to talk to or trust... As a child I was abused for years after my parents disowned me and put me in state custody to grow up. Those years changed my life and really ucked up my mind. I never had anyone to talk to or trust just when I started to they to give up on me. years later after abusing drugs I thought helped me deal with my problems. Well about all it did was help me bottle up my problems and everything seemed fine to everyone on the outside but inside I am the saddest person. I am very outgoing and like to make people laugh and always "click" with people. In 1997 I met the girl of my dreams and she is the greatest creature god ever created. She came from this thing called family. I dont know this way of life and she makes me feel more loved and I trust her with everything. After getting together with her my problems seemed solved. We got married and I was the luckiest guy on earth to have her as the most glowing hottest bride I have ever seen. I have never felt such love! But then my past slowly started to catch back up with me and the visions, screams and nightmares came back and started to change how I was with her and she started using cocaine when I did and now for the past 14 months been smokin crack and both unhappy but we both love each other. 2 days ago my world fell out from underme and she told me she was unhappy and wants me to move out of state. We both are wanting to get clean and hopefully back together. Any suggestions would be great. Thanks ]]> rvpurple http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/rvpurple/219-losing-my-wife-after-10-years-input-please.html