I've reposted this from a thread I started because I want to remember my feelings about this later on down the road...



I've tried to talk to her about it, but she really doesn't want to hear it. She hurt her back in a car accident and started taking Vicodin, but it seems she was taking stuff before that, but that was when she actually had the pills prescribed for her. Before it was always one of her parents giving her something for a muscle she pulled or her sister...

I hate July. It's the beginning of July and it's the end of July that sends me into fits.

I wish I could share here why I hate July, but it's not relevant to addiction so I suppose not.

Although I have my own addictions I fight all the time. I've actually had trouble with them lately, but I'm still trying.

Either way, I'm freaking out. I'm trying to get better, but at the same time... it's July.

It's the first July since having it all...

I posted this in the Friends and Family forum, but I'm so freakin' proud (is that bad?) that I had to post it here, too.

Okay, so there was stuff going on today and I wanted to talk to my mom about looking at the Step 1 stuff and how I'd learned I had a lot of work to do and I wanted to talk with her about it so she'd be proud of me and see that I'm awesome and all and guess what????

I kept my mouth shut! Woot woot me!!!!!!!!!!

This is my journey....

Yesterday, I had a peaceful day. I woke up and went to a movie with my friend, daughter and husband. Then my daughter went to her dad's for the weekend. My husband and I picked up our son and went home and while mom was on one side of the house, we sat on the other.

My son was playing and having a great time going back and forth and my husband and I just shared with each other and laughed and really enjoyed each others' company.

I didn't sabotage anything. We just...

It's quite possible I hate my mother.

This site showed up again just in time. One of my friends came over and said there was a site I might need and tried to sign me up for it. Of course, once I saw what site she was trying to get me on, I told her never mind about the new account because I already had one.

She was shocked because I'm SO screwed up.

Granted, she's right.

So I posted a few things and now she's left and I can look...