My second sober St. Patty's day. This day was about the biggest party day in my existence. Now, I feel like a million bucks. Has to be one of the best things I've done for my life. It's like quitting smoking, you don't have any regrets for quitting.

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Time to let it go.

Doc says, "So, you've found a ritual that soothes you. There are usually three reasons for that." She states them but I can't remember all of them. Doesn't matter. Mine is because I feel unworthy. Closet full of skeletons, blah blah blah.

I was raised in manner that would not allow me to feel worthy. This is something I have had to (start) to build myself. What a frigin' trek. Plus, that was a long time ago. So the foundation wasn't...

For me:

I think where we get hung up is in the traditional view of this. Where god is a guy. Not only is he a guy but he is a guy that resides in heaven. WTF? No judgements here, I swear. I just really think that is where a lot of us get hung up.

I identify mostly with buddhism. I also attend unity temple after my buddhist hour every sunday. They like to preach about us all being god, that god is reflected in each of us. This part I can handle. If I take out...

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