Hello everyone. I was in the chat room earlier, and let everyone know at about 12pm today I threw out my bottle of pills (adderall)
I finally did it! I have been crying non stop today (not because of throwing them out, but a sense of Where do I go from here? Worrying about getting to meetings since i have work/school, and a 6 yr old son while my husband works very late.
We are in the process of moving (buying a home) so there is stress from that. Also fear that I will fail out of...

At this very moment i feel as if im having a heart attack due to abusing adderall/vyvanse. This is the 3rd time it's happened, even had to go to ER. Everytime i am so insane that after i survive it by freaking out and taking benedryl to try and settle it. The next morning I do it again cause i need to get thru school. I look for counceling here but its a large city so many places, most dont take my insurance, and i cant afford it otherwise. Looking for meetings schedule is SO large, and doesnt give...