F*ck.
I slipped last night.
dammit it.
I called my friend....one to two who knows about my situation.....and i was pretty drunk. i remember some of the conversation but not all of it....
Goddamn it!!

I have finals this week and Today is my last study day....but I cant focus at all....I cant get any work done.....

So today was not a good day. It wasn't BAD day but I did some thinking....
I thought...I'm not me anymore.... I'm not how I used to be. Now I'm just....sober. all the problems I had before are still there...prevalent as always. Life keeps moving. But I'm just sober. That's all I am.

Today is my 9 week mark. Woah. It feels like an eternity longer.

woah. 62 Days. When I put it like that it sounds alot longer than just over two months
Hi. Im 16. My Sober date is April 1, 2009.
Recently its been getting harder to say 'no'....resisting is becoming tougher. Sunday night I sat on the floor (on the phone with a friend) for an hour and a half with an open bottle. But I didnt drink. I put it back. It scraes me that I got so close......