My thoughts.
Just me
Just me
My head is spinny ......
Posted 02-04-2008 at 03:55 PM by PaperDolls
My job has been more stressful over the last few months. I'm sure it's not helping.
All last week ..... and today have been horrible at work. I don't know if I'm more irritable than usual or my boss is actually being real jerk. I think it might be a bit of both.
I decided this morning to take the Focalin again. I thought may be I didn't give it a fair shot. I only gave it 4 or 5 days. I feel so crazy today. I'm on edge, amped up, very grumpy, feel like I could explode, and my head is spinny. It has to be the meds. I have my days but not an entire week. When I think back to the weekend when I wasn't taking the Focalin, I did not feel like this. I suppose it could be hormones ..... it about that time of the month. TMI!
Anyway -- I hate the way I feel right now.
Tomorrow evening I'll be putting in about 5 extra hours because of Super Tuesday.....probably not the best idea but I always work extra during any elections and I could use the extra money.
I'm hoping tomorrow, since I won't be taking the Focolin, I'll feel less like a crazy person.
Oh, about telling co-workers why you might be gone for an extended period of time -- getting more intensive treatment for depression etc. I don't mind telling people but I've found over the last few years, people do not understand depression. Period. They might think they do but they don't. If you say "I suffer from depression." They say "Why?". Well, for one there's not always a why and for two that sure is a probing question. For some one who is suffering from situational depression, the situation that put them into a depression is obviously a touchy thing and difficult to deal with so don't ask stupid questions like that!
So I've got a picture in my mind of what would happen at work if I was gone from work for an extended period of time and it's not pretty. If I could just get that out of my mind may be it would be easier to look into that. I haven't made a new appt. with my pdoc. I'm just not in the mood to deal with it.
All last week ..... and today have been horrible at work. I don't know if I'm more irritable than usual or my boss is actually being real jerk. I think it might be a bit of both.
I decided this morning to take the Focalin again. I thought may be I didn't give it a fair shot. I only gave it 4 or 5 days. I feel so crazy today. I'm on edge, amped up, very grumpy, feel like I could explode, and my head is spinny. It has to be the meds. I have my days but not an entire week. When I think back to the weekend when I wasn't taking the Focalin, I did not feel like this. I suppose it could be hormones ..... it about that time of the month. TMI!
Anyway -- I hate the way I feel right now.
Tomorrow evening I'll be putting in about 5 extra hours because of Super Tuesday.....probably not the best idea but I always work extra during any elections and I could use the extra money.
I'm hoping tomorrow, since I won't be taking the Focolin, I'll feel less like a crazy person.
Oh, about telling co-workers why you might be gone for an extended period of time -- getting more intensive treatment for depression etc. I don't mind telling people but I've found over the last few years, people do not understand depression. Period. They might think they do but they don't. If you say "I suffer from depression." They say "Why?". Well, for one there's not always a why and for two that sure is a probing question. For some one who is suffering from situational depression, the situation that put them into a depression is obviously a touchy thing and difficult to deal with so don't ask stupid questions like that!
So I've got a picture in my mind of what would happen at work if I was gone from work for an extended period of time and it's not pretty. If I could just get that out of my mind may be it would be easier to look into that. I haven't made a new appt. with my pdoc. I'm just not in the mood to deal with it.
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usually I have some pithy to say. This time - no pith.
Jen
dunno what I can do/say but you know where I am
DPosted 02-05-2008 at 04:15 AM by Dee74
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Thanks dee.Posted 02-05-2008 at 05:09 PM by PaperDolls
