My thoughts.
Just me
Just me
Just a little rant....
Posted 01-17-2008 at 09:53 AM by PaperDolls
I'm so tired of being tired. I feel like I need to take a week off and just sleep.
Saw the pdoc on Tuesday. She's taken me off the Vyvanse (AD/HD). It's possible it was keeping me from sleeping but I really don't think so.
My sleep meds and klonopin don't seem to work any more. I feel like I have more anxiety than I ever did. I'm just very irritable. May be just lack of sleep. I feel like the depression has been helped by the wellbutrin. I'm just waiting for that to stop working.
I'll be trying a new AD/HD med in a few weeks - Focalin. May be, probably.
Even though the depression seems better, or gone. I'm still down on myself ..... a lot more often lately. I feel lazy and like ...... what am I here for? What do I want to do? What is my passion? Do I find my passion, or does my passion find me? I need some hobbies but I never finish anything I start. Why the hell do I do that? Since I haven't been sleeping, my thinking is rapid like that late at night. Very annoying.
I often think: I'll just get wasted tonight, then I'll sleep. Often times, that's what I did if I knew I'd have a hard time sleeping. Just drink 'till you fall asleep......
I'm not going to do it but I'm not going to say I don't want to either. I'd really like to.
I wish I could go back to school, finish my degree. I'm broke and I don't feel like I have enough time for anything. With my lack of sleep, trying to take any classes would probably just be a joke.
So ..... that's my rant for the day .... or for the moment.
So how did you find your passion?
Saw the pdoc on Tuesday. She's taken me off the Vyvanse (AD/HD). It's possible it was keeping me from sleeping but I really don't think so.
My sleep meds and klonopin don't seem to work any more. I feel like I have more anxiety than I ever did. I'm just very irritable. May be just lack of sleep. I feel like the depression has been helped by the wellbutrin. I'm just waiting for that to stop working.
I'll be trying a new AD/HD med in a few weeks - Focalin. May be, probably.
Even though the depression seems better, or gone. I'm still down on myself ..... a lot more often lately. I feel lazy and like ...... what am I here for? What do I want to do? What is my passion? Do I find my passion, or does my passion find me? I need some hobbies but I never finish anything I start. Why the hell do I do that? Since I haven't been sleeping, my thinking is rapid like that late at night. Very annoying.
I often think: I'll just get wasted tonight, then I'll sleep. Often times, that's what I did if I knew I'd have a hard time sleeping. Just drink 'till you fall asleep......
I'm not going to do it but I'm not going to say I don't want to either. I'd really like to.
I wish I could go back to school, finish my degree. I'm broke and I don't feel like I have enough time for anything. With my lack of sleep, trying to take any classes would probably just be a joke.
So ..... that's my rant for the day .... or for the moment.
So how did you find your passion?
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I never didn't know what it was.
I know. that's about a suckie answer.
I've always loved horses.
And I've always .. loved Spirit.
The two - are the same ot me.
It's irrational
it's unexplainable
it's a blessing that I never had to 'go ssearching'.Posted 01-18-2008 at 02:17 AM by barb dwyer
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well, that makes me sad that I don't know. I'm glad you do ....... but why don't I?Posted 01-18-2008 at 06:31 PM by PaperDolls 
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I know this feeling all to well. I have it often <sigh>.Quote:I'm not going to do it but I'm not going to say I don't want to either. I'd really like to.
My passion? Easy answer is my kids. It's living for them, through them and with them.
But as far as a hobby type of passion goes I would have to say it's definitely yoga (did you know
). I love the classes, I like to read about it, I just love the thought if it. I *found it* because my doctor suggested seriously trying something to reduce stress. I did and it's been good for me 
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Also passionate about cooking... always have been.Posted 01-23-2008 at 09:06 AM by gypsytears
