My thoughts.
Just me
Just me
What am I doing here?
Posted 01-11-2008 at 09:02 PM by PaperDolls
I'm having one of those nights where I just feel like everything sucks. I'm feeling sorry for myself. I actually feel sorry for myself that I can never drink again. It's not fair.
I was thinking.........I really enjoy either sleeping the day away or getting smashed so I don't have to deal with stuff.
After I quit drinking, I did a lot of sleeping the days away. I still do it often. I'm wondering why my anti-depressants wouldn't help with that. I shouldn't WANT to sleep the day away.
I don't feel like I've accomplished anything with my life. I never did have any goals or anything but I often wonder if this is where I should be in life. I've not ever figured out what "my calling" is. Does it just come to you or have I just always been too lazy to find out?
*sigh*
This will pass, I know it will. I know I'll be fine.
I just still am baffled when I'm feeling like this, after all the meds and pdoc's and therapy. Shouldn't I be ok with me by now?
My head's doing one of these

I was thinking.........I really enjoy either sleeping the day away or getting smashed so I don't have to deal with stuff.
After I quit drinking, I did a lot of sleeping the days away. I still do it often. I'm wondering why my anti-depressants wouldn't help with that. I shouldn't WANT to sleep the day away.I don't feel like I've accomplished anything with my life. I never did have any goals or anything but I often wonder if this is where I should be in life. I've not ever figured out what "my calling" is. Does it just come to you or have I just always been too lazy to find out?
*sigh*
This will pass, I know it will. I know I'll be fine.
I just still am baffled when I'm feeling like this, after all the meds and pdoc's and therapy. Shouldn't I be ok with me by now?
My head's doing one of these

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I sleep a lot also so you're not alone!
OMG Girl try being 47 and feeling that way. You are young, beautiful, intelligent, so you can still make something of your life. I have no idea what my calling is and probably never will find out maybe it is to be a pain in the azzz LMMFAOQuote:I don't feel like I've accomplished anything with my life. I never did have any goals or anything but I often wonder if this is where I should be in life. I've not ever figured out what "my calling" is.
OK I just saw this blog and had to reply. Love it you just made my day
Posted 01-25-2008 at 01:45 PM by Chance
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