http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/opiateaddict/ Online Support Groups for Addicts, Alcoholics and their Family, Friends and Loved Ones. Wed, 15 Feb 2012 22:57:27 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/opiateaddict/ http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/opiateaddict/792-i-might-not-able-stop-pain-but-i-can-stop-problem.html Mon, 26 May 2008 15:44:31 GMT k three times in one week i was admitted to the hosp. twice over night and once a little longer. I really thought something was up. my stomache hurt so bad. no amount of medication helped. but one... k three times in one week i was admitted to the hosp. twice over night and once a little longer. I really thought something was up. my stomache hurt so bad. no amount of medication helped. but one week later and they say nothing is wrong with me. NOW I KNOW THATS NOT TRUE, but my chrones was not active. in fact my stomache lookes healthier than in a long time. so this brings me back to the pain. its still there whether chronic or pyschosymatic its there. but no more meds. ive made up my mind.again. no more pain meds. if nothing is wrong then i dont need them. right? and ive decided that i cant do this on my own anymore and have decided to go to meetings. i might not be able to stop the pain but i can stop a problem. stay clean and i'll let you know how the meeting goes. ]]> Opiateaddict http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/opiateaddict/792-i-might-not-able-stop-pain-but-i-can-stop-problem.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/opiateaddict/763-a.html Thu, 15 May 2008 23:48:46 GMT dealing with a touchy situation this week. you see i was diagnosed with chrones about 4 years ago. so there are times i really need pain meds. last night for example i was admitted to the hospital... dealing with a touchy situation this week. you see i was diagnosed with chrones about 4 years ago. so there are times i really need pain meds. last night for example i was admitted to the hospital with severe dehydration. i was in alot of pain and hadn't been able to stop throwing up all day. so you can see that the responsibility is on me to keep my problems at bay. but i guess it always has been. i have been able to keep myself to only taking the meds when needed, but cant help but feel like i'm doing something i shouldn't be, and only prolonging the process. ]]> Opiateaddict http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/opiateaddict/763-a.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/opiateaddict/739-week-will-different.html Sun, 11 May 2008 16:14:15 GMT Bare with me... i dont know how to start. last night was beyond brutal. sweated through two comforters. I woke up at 4:30 am moved to the couch, and tossed and turned for another hour and a half.... Bare with me... i dont know how to start. last night was beyond brutal. sweated through two comforters. I woke up at 4:30 am moved to the couch, and tossed and turned for another hour and a half. then decided to use. i justified it, as i hadn't used much just enough to relieve myself about 1/30 of my old dose. now that i feel better i find myself deppressed that i used at all. i let down myself and my girl. she dosn't know but if she did she would be dissappaionted i'm sure. its so hard to maintain sobriety. i REALLY want to live drug free. its just so hard when you feel like hell and you know the cure. i'm tired of this lifestyle, this routine, barely an existance. tommorow i will try again. it's easier on weekdays, less spare time. work makes me tired, it's easier to sleep. so i screwed up this weekend but i remain positive for tonight and this week. i WILL beat this thing. ]]> Opiateaddict http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/opiateaddict/739-week-will-different.html