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dealing with a touchy situation this week. you see i was diagnosed with chrones about 4 years ago. so there are times i really need pain meds. last night for example i was admitted to the hospital with severe dehydration. i was in alot of pain and hadn't been able to stop throwing up all day. so you can see that the responsibility is on me to keep my problems at bay. but i guess it always has been. i have been able to keep myself to only taking the meds when needed, but cant help but feel like i'm doing something i shouldn't be, and only prolonging the process.